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i've been totally m.i.a. lately.
sorry.
work and school and frustration with things.
i've lost the capability to understand my own thoughts anymore.
my cousin left and i miss him being around.
i want my baby cousin to come into this world so i can love him and take care of him.
i'm doing the worst i have ever ever done in school... ever.
i leave for montana in less than a week now and i cannot wait.
i have a strong feeling i will not want to come back.
i love montana.
i am excited to spend time with my cousins and i want to get to know them better.
i should be able to visit my mom and i can't wait to take her flowers and share the gorgeous views with her again.
i haven't been thinking about her much lately. not truely, deeply thinking about her. which makes me feel guilty.
then today at work. thoughts came rushing to me. and i started crying and no one knew why. i just can't seem to explain it to people. i want to, but i'm incapable.
i'm ending my rambling. time to get more sleep.
there is so much i need to do.
sorry.
work and school and frustration with things.
i've lost the capability to understand my own thoughts anymore.
my cousin left and i miss him being around.
i want my baby cousin to come into this world so i can love him and take care of him.
i'm doing the worst i have ever ever done in school... ever.
i leave for montana in less than a week now and i cannot wait.
i have a strong feeling i will not want to come back.
i love montana.
i am excited to spend time with my cousins and i want to get to know them better.
i should be able to visit my mom and i can't wait to take her flowers and share the gorgeous views with her again.
i haven't been thinking about her much lately. not truely, deeply thinking about her. which makes me feel guilty.
then today at work. thoughts came rushing to me. and i started crying and no one knew why. i just can't seem to explain it to people. i want to, but i'm incapable.
i'm ending my rambling. time to get more sleep.
there is so much i need to do.