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2007:
no death.
no dying.
no loss.
the hospital bed, with me in it again,
but no fear. they brought me there
and then left my side
and there was no forgiveness.
there was cold air and failure and a long uphill struggle
when the snow melted and I found myself again,
there next to me was this amazing woman
but next to her there was another one..
this time
the polyamory
was not my own
and I learned to grow up around it.
my own car, unemployment, flame torches, and the loss of loneliness
daylong barefoot summertime adventures
(with her puppy)
escaping lafayette and finding inspiration to move
(repeatedly)
laura veirs, mirah, and ani difranco
(but not all at once)
moving to my very own home
and having her in it.
drinking beer in my kitchen
by the glow of the moonlight we had shared outdoors
all throughout the longest possible courtship.
revisiting our mutual homeland
rediscovering things that were once meaningless.
helping her move, and knowing we would do it all again once more
but once for both of us together.
two very unhealthy jobs, for both of us, for a long time.
eating food, gaining weight, and ignoring the whole thing.
school, stress, repeated failure, and rejection of art;
somehow surviving Purdue 2007
with the hope of something entirely different next fall.
love, uncertainty, trust,
and a feeling close to what destiny must be
ringing in the new year with her
and the other woman
having known the whole time: I am the one she chooses.
2007 harbored much hurt, hate, and emptiness
but I can still feel the warmth and love that came with it.
let 2008 be what it will be
because I will never again ask for anything.
( I have all I need )
related: BBC news documents as NYC condemns 2007 into the DUSTBIN OF HISTORY