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[sickaffe]

so.. i don't know
i really just don't know
i want to go away, i wish i were leaving tomorrow. i always leave with such high hopes. maybe i'll meet someone, maybe something amazing with happen, maybe i'll never come home.
then i'm on the plane heading home and i'm like-shit, shit shit shit.
why didn't i do that?
why would i do that?
but why can't i appreciate the fact that i'm there. that i have these opportunities.
oh i do, really.

i wish i could just let go.
if i were to do so, i surely would not be here now.

i also wish to expose my real thoughts, but that would be letting go.

i can't wait, just cannot fucking wait
for a new start