our december sun is setting.
you know, its funny to think how things once were and how they are now. i guess the funny part is thinking that they will never change. and here you are now, wondering exactly what just happened. life is so weird sometimes. you really dont ever know whats about to happen. you wake up just like you would any other day, then something just happens, and everything is different. today was sort of like that, well this past month has really, but today just threw a little more into the mix. i woke up, went to work and came home to find out that cory (my ex girlfriend of almost 3 years) is getting married in two days. im not too sure what to think about it. ive always had very strong feelings for her. i still do now. i guess i just thought that someday things would work themselves out and everything would be okay. i guess it isnt exactly how i thought it would be and today was one of those days where it really just clicks and you just know that everything is different. i mean, dont get me wrong, im over her, well over her in the sense that i can move on with other people and have accepted the fact of where she is now, its just crazy to think...i mean marriage?! thats such a huge step. so big. the biggest. and even though im over her, having the small thought of us in the back of my mind was nice. theres no harm in hope. i dont know, this is weird. and its not just this, its everything. everything seems different. with the whole roses are red thing, me leaving with another band, moving out of my house, anthony and becca breaking up, people moving away, and now this...it seems as if NOTHING is the same, nor will it ever be. i mean, i know things change and thats part of life, but this seems like an awful lot to be happening in such a short amount of time. i guess things are always changing, but they dont usually move this fast, and now its just easier to see. who knows, i need to find a nice girl and a sweet job. hopefully then, ill be pumped on the changes. sorry for the bitch entry haha.