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So I've been handling this whole cancer situation very well up until tonight. I know everything will be ok but now things are finally starting to hit me. I'm scared...I know it may not be bad but its still scary. What happens if it turns out worse in the end? What happens if really does only last 5 years? He may not see me get married...Have kids etc. It scares me soo much. I want things to go back to normal. J is bein amazing about it. He's been callin every day and I really appreciate that. I need someone to be there for me that's not just my girlfriends.