Back to work tomorrow!
It's back to work tomorrow... and I am a little sad that my "vacation" is over, not that it has been a vacation in any sense of the word. I had to recover from my ordeal, and still take care of my baby... and motherhood is a full-time job, as a lot of women have found out! Hubby has been good helping out with baby and I can't really complain... but I do feel like I've been left holding the bag most of the time. It's the lot of women, I suppose. It's partly my fault, because I can't seem to help but carry the baby all the time, especially when he gets fussy. Anyway, I've made it hubby's job to get the baby to sleep at night... and he's good at it, dang! But it gives me a little time to get some things done before bed. And so that's what I've been doing tonight, just going over things in my head to get ready for tomorrow.
I DO love my job, so it isn't any hardship at all. Besides, I'd been working at home, of sorts. I'm super grateful to my boss for still putting me on full-pay... the money does help. The thing that's different now is that I am bringing my son into the work equation and I don't exactly know how it's going to turn out. The good thing is that my company isn't exactly a "normal" company... we stop working to groom cats and dogs, save ducks, babysit kids and everything else in between... things that happen in families... and that's what my job is to me... I just feel a little strange about it, but we'll see what happens tomorrow!
Of course other things have been happening... my father-in-law's health has been declining gradually, and this is his fourth time in the hospital. So there have been a lot of decisions that had to be made.
First of all, the decision was to have him moved to hospice once he gets out of the hospital. Second would be to fly over there next weekend for dad to meet his grandchild. Third, to make arrangements for Do Not Resuscitate and funeral plans for the future. And finally, to sell the house and move the furniture. All hard decisions. Not necessarily what I'd have done for myself, but necessary in this situation. And we got input from other members of the family, so at least the heavy load was lifted and shared.
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In all this time, hubby is still not giving up on our dream house and winning the lottery. I'm afraid I don't have the same enthusiasm about the lottery, but I do want the house for us. Unfortunately I am just so immersed in the "now", and can't go beyond two hour feedings and changing diapers and doing Quickbooks and preparing dinner... I wish we could be on the same page again, but as long as our sweet baby boy is still sharing our bed and commandeering my every waking moment, all I can do is hold his hand, give him a hug when I can, and make sure he's holding up okay.
I DO love my job, so it isn't any hardship at all. Besides, I'd been working at home, of sorts. I'm super grateful to my boss for still putting me on full-pay... the money does help. The thing that's different now is that I am bringing my son into the work equation and I don't exactly know how it's going to turn out. The good thing is that my company isn't exactly a "normal" company... we stop working to groom cats and dogs, save ducks, babysit kids and everything else in between... things that happen in families... and that's what my job is to me... I just feel a little strange about it, but we'll see what happens tomorrow!
Of course other things have been happening... my father-in-law's health has been declining gradually, and this is his fourth time in the hospital. So there have been a lot of decisions that had to be made.
First of all, the decision was to have him moved to hospice once he gets out of the hospital. Second would be to fly over there next weekend for dad to meet his grandchild. Third, to make arrangements for Do Not Resuscitate and funeral plans for the future. And finally, to sell the house and move the furniture. All hard decisions. Not necessarily what I'd have done for myself, but necessary in this situation. And we got input from other members of the family, so at least the heavy load was lifted and shared.
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In all this time, hubby is still not giving up on our dream house and winning the lottery. I'm afraid I don't have the same enthusiasm about the lottery, but I do want the house for us. Unfortunately I am just so immersed in the "now", and can't go beyond two hour feedings and changing diapers and doing Quickbooks and preparing dinner... I wish we could be on the same page again, but as long as our sweet baby boy is still sharing our bed and commandeering my every waking moment, all I can do is hold his hand, give him a hug when I can, and make sure he's holding up okay.