i hope youre coming with me
i received my most recent hiv test and some concerns concerning the most recent mishap have been put to ease. well put to an ease is more like it. we're about to get really fucking technical up in here. i was also unblinded in my hiv vaccine study. so i did in fact receive the dna vacine and not the placebo. i knew i shouldve put some money on that. there were a few times after the injections that i felt something a little off with my body, i didnt necessarily feel sick but i definitely felt off. im happy to know that my mind is somewhat in tune with my body. so, heres the technical stuff (which i love by the way) [this is all based on my hiv test in november mind you]. i am testing postitive for the anitbody response but negative for the virus. which simply makes sense. my body was injected with synthetic piece of a virus and my immune response produced antibodies that sought out and attempted to attach itself to this alleged virus for identification purposes. the abbott test only searches for this immune response, not for the virus. the western blot and viral load tests confirmed negative for the presence of the virus. all this is important mind you when you are dating a microbiologist whom you recently topped and the condom came off. but as i mentioned before, this data only puts us at an ease not at ease. my last anal sexual partner (with a condom) was march 20th. the results mentioned above are from november, where a total of three anal partners have been had (including jonathan), four total sexual partners. i write this stuff down in my calender, which i acknowledge is a bit weird but hey i live in san franfuckingcisco, precautions are taken for a seasoned girl like myself. anyways, this particular partner from the 20th throws the situation to an ease rather than at ease. because my most recent test was preformed pre-sight where we are uncertain if only the abbott test was performed (where if it was negative they wouldnt have gone any further) or if the western blot and viral load were also performed (a true representation of ones status). though its likely that if i tested false positive in november, its highly likely i also tested false positive a week and a half ago. and in so doing, they would have performed said western blot and viral load tests, clearing me of all ambiguity.
but one doesnt presume in matters of status. one may presume that they locked the door when the left the house this morning or even more daring that they turned off the stove but one never presumes their status. i will most likely go back in and use approximately $100 of our taxes to request a viral load test and confirm my status without a doubt.
i only mention all these technicalities because this is what jonathan and i just talked about. also we both are very much interested in getting to know each other without all this red tape. intimacy gets really fucking technical these days but i presume that its worth it. presume in the sense that we wont get bored with each other. and that presumed boredom, by the way, is an entry just bursting to come apart.
anyways, thats all i have for this evening. im going to finish this glass of white and call it a night. i only mention all this because this is what our well informed world has come to, a very complicated, drawn out process of me trying to get intimate with him. how do you tell a microbiologist you are really falling for him.. ... well see above.
but one doesnt presume in matters of status. one may presume that they locked the door when the left the house this morning or even more daring that they turned off the stove but one never presumes their status. i will most likely go back in and use approximately $100 of our taxes to request a viral load test and confirm my status without a doubt.
i only mention all these technicalities because this is what jonathan and i just talked about. also we both are very much interested in getting to know each other without all this red tape. intimacy gets really fucking technical these days but i presume that its worth it. presume in the sense that we wont get bored with each other. and that presumed boredom, by the way, is an entry just bursting to come apart.
anyways, thats all i have for this evening. im going to finish this glass of white and call it a night. i only mention all this because this is what our well informed world has come to, a very complicated, drawn out process of me trying to get intimate with him. how do you tell a microbiologist you are really falling for him.. ... well see above.