Cognitive Distortion

[siamun1st]

Well I look at the device that counts time, counts our precious heartbeats, counts our daily lives all-day and everyday, damn that clock LOL. Hi hello hola good day how are you? Well I guess from the sounds of it I am rather perky but not, kinda like no but okay *WINKS *WINKS LOL. Yeah guess what, i don't think any body can cuz I don't have an answer for the guesses so pllllllllbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb. Yeah I know that was lame but I had to fill up that line with something, you know what looks sooooooooo damn hot rite about now? My bed, in my 80 degree room with the sweet sound of slow relaxing sessy music to help me sleep. Music is such a huge part of my life and thanks to Nikki (WUV YA) I have been exposed to about 50 million other hot songs that would have taken me ages to find. In fact I have 1268 files on Kazaa plus the unlisted one I had prior to having Kazaa in Music Match. Guess what else, It was Nikki who broke my goal of a 1000 songs and might I add she did so very swiftly and with great music at that, thank you so much Nikki. Okay now as for bizarre thoughts n such, I had an idea that sounds odd but when you dream it makes sense. If we pass through time and time has the ability to be frozen in space, y can't we just adopt that concept here on Earth to live our lives in endless moment of pure comfort and love for eternity? We cannot because our vision is distorted in 4 dimensions, you have your X-Y-Z but don't for get about number 4 which is gravity. I know this makes no sense to you but to me I found the key to all of times wonders by looking at how times folds around us how it uses us to control, to suffer, to burden. Time is nothing more than a way to limit the length of a day, and of all days in life y must the perfect ones come to an end so quickly? WHY? I woke up just a bit ago and had to type this out. In my nappy dream I found myself searching for a missing person, and what is scary is that the missing person was myself, but the harder I looked for myself the harder I looked for those I love so dear. They were looking for me but the only way they would find me is if I found them at the exact same moment, we had to meet in my room, at 9:45pm in front of my caputer. So again the clock was watching me and teasing me, I did not ask or question if they would be there so I got into my head and drove to my home, the place where I feel sick from leaving. I was taken away from here and for what reason? Death? NO I refuse I will not die because my love is here with Nikki and with Adam so for eternity I will live no matter what the experts say about my health, and that clock is telling me to hurry up. Here I am time, where the hell are you?

Love You (INTRACTIONAL DISTANCE FORCES DREAMS TO LIVE)

-If I was God I’d give up eternity to be with you, if I was an Angel I’d live with you, if I was Immortal I’d be with you forever, if I was love I would be you-