Does he, ever get the girl?
Go to hell with your pretty face.
This applies to anyone who does have a pretty face.
Is it wrong for me to feel uncomfortable in my own home? Today I was sitting on the couch watching T.V and for some reason I just felt utterly uncomfortable sitting there with everyone in the house knowing about it. I then proceeded to walk into my kitchen to look for something to drink and my brother walked ina dn I had to walk out. So I just went up to my room and fell asleep.
I have been having those god damn nightmares again. It seems that in everyone I have had so far, I'm either pregnant or I have a baby with me. I'ts not neccesarily mine either. This last one consisted of me going to war. It was the civil war,lucky me. I left someone back home with a baby. I woke up after I got shot in the stomach because I could feel it. Then lucky me I ended up with the worst cramps ever!
I wonder if the only reason my mom had me was because I was an easy scapegoat for her to be able to throw away the pain of losing a child. I also think that she still has feelings for my dad, but will never admit it. She is using me for a reason to loved. Even though she doesn't need to.
I miss my sister. She has been gone all day and probably wont be back untill wednesday. I want more friends out here. I want a job and someone to take the retractable leash off me. A.k.a my mom. I want to grow up from being 12. Today she asked me if I could handle closing all the windows before I went to bed. Implying that I'm not responsible enough to do it. Then she questioned my ability to keep up my hygene. If I don't want to take a shower because I can't move out of pain, then that sir it's my problem. The she told me that I need to stop using my period as an excuss to be lazy. The onyl reason I wont commit suicide is because of a few people I love and my mother. She would get so much pleasure out of it. I wont allow that.
it's 12:08 and I want a ciggerette and a friend. I want to stay up all night talking about everything and everyone. Why did my sister have to get friends?
I wanna go there.
I have dibbs on Drew. <3