If you find yourself here on my side of town, I pray you come to my door.
My day has brought me good fortune. Wow I sound like a fortune cookie....
I have gotten to see friends that I hadn't seen in a long time. I met new peeople, and then smiled forever. haha and it still hasn't left me.
Jen walks in and says hi to me...then looks at me and is like "Colleen you got some tittys" I love her.
The news paper just came, it scares me everytime.
My mom is still being anal. She needs to get over it.
Bryan called and made my day even better. I enjoy having a guy friend who can be that close and care that much. I mean it's kinda weird because he wanted to have sex with me but now were hella close. I guess he helps add to fill to that gap my dad has left me.
I don't wanna get hurt. Thats my biggest fear laetly. People say don't worry. But then how can I not? I want to be able to pull myself free of this constant state of who's gonna burn me next? That goes for everyone I encounter. I trust so few now. It makes me feel bad too because I believe that everyone has good in them and deserves my abiltity to trust them. But it's hard when that ability is disabled for my own selfish reasons. I don't even know what my reasoning is either? Thats the fucked part.
Tomorrow will be a better day then today. So I have decided that since today was wonderful that tomorrow will be amazing. ♥
I have gotten to see friends that I hadn't seen in a long time. I met new peeople, and then smiled forever. haha and it still hasn't left me.
Jen walks in and says hi to me...then looks at me and is like "Colleen you got some tittys" I love her.
The news paper just came, it scares me everytime.
My mom is still being anal. She needs to get over it.
Bryan called and made my day even better. I enjoy having a guy friend who can be that close and care that much. I mean it's kinda weird because he wanted to have sex with me but now were hella close. I guess he helps add to fill to that gap my dad has left me.
I don't wanna get hurt. Thats my biggest fear laetly. People say don't worry. But then how can I not? I want to be able to pull myself free of this constant state of who's gonna burn me next? That goes for everyone I encounter. I trust so few now. It makes me feel bad too because I believe that everyone has good in them and deserves my abiltity to trust them. But it's hard when that ability is disabled for my own selfish reasons. I don't even know what my reasoning is either? Thats the fucked part.
Tomorrow will be a better day then today. So I have decided that since today was wonderful that tomorrow will be amazing. ♥