Day two with the natives
Food
Breakfast: sandwich made with 1 egg, 1 slice low sodium bacon, 1 slice of aged cheddar, 1 whole grain English muffin, 1 clementine
Snack: 1 apple
Lunch: leftover chicken malai kabab with jasmati rice
Snack: nature valley oat honey bars
Dinner: sweet potato shepherd's pie
Water: barely 2 liters at work then 1 liter at home
Exercise
Prepping two runs at work and lots of running around
Smoking
Five cigarettes
Mental state
Thoughts about betrayal of trust related to old journal entries, sadness and neglect, moments of self doubt
Tried to work through old memories by wishfully hoping for dreams to work through things. Don't know if it happened but may be making progress since I've pushed a lot of it aside the last ten years. Or did I actually get over it?
Other common thread was lack of sleep back then and currently having the same issue. Could be same feelings related to current work and life situations like feeling pushed aside or used or even overlooked. Could also be my back issues since I'm getting up there in age. Or a little of both?
Maybe my dreams will help with that tonight.
Breakfast: sandwich made with 1 egg, 1 slice low sodium bacon, 1 slice of aged cheddar, 1 whole grain English muffin, 1 clementine
Snack: 1 apple
Lunch: leftover chicken malai kabab with jasmati rice
Snack: nature valley oat honey bars
Dinner: sweet potato shepherd's pie
Water: barely 2 liters at work then 1 liter at home
Exercise
Prepping two runs at work and lots of running around
Smoking
Five cigarettes
Mental state
Thoughts about betrayal of trust related to old journal entries, sadness and neglect, moments of self doubt
Tried to work through old memories by wishfully hoping for dreams to work through things. Don't know if it happened but may be making progress since I've pushed a lot of it aside the last ten years. Or did I actually get over it?
Other common thread was lack of sleep back then and currently having the same issue. Could be same feelings related to current work and life situations like feeling pushed aside or used or even overlooked. Could also be my back issues since I'm getting up there in age. Or a little of both?
Maybe my dreams will help with that tonight.