Lonely
"Seeking: Friend, either with own transportation or local, for movies, Scrabble and dope smoking."
So here I am, writing in this crappy journal I have avoided disabling for years and years with sporadic entries of the most mundane sort.
I don't know what to do with myself.
I fell like I am slowly going insane living in Salmo. Isolation is not theraputic to me, I hate being alone. Mike has been gone all month, and it looks like there will be many more absences in the future before the winter chill sets in and keeps him off the rooves for a couple of months. Some days I come home from work, clean up whatever destruction the dog has made and just cry. The house is a total pigsty. I cant seem to get the motivation to DO anything. No art, no design, no music even. I just sit on the couch.
I need to get some motivation going on.
I need to figure out why I hate being alone and confront that, because it is not going away, and I worry it could really hurt my life.
So here I am, writing in this crappy journal I have avoided disabling for years and years with sporadic entries of the most mundane sort.
I don't know what to do with myself.
I fell like I am slowly going insane living in Salmo. Isolation is not theraputic to me, I hate being alone. Mike has been gone all month, and it looks like there will be many more absences in the future before the winter chill sets in and keeps him off the rooves for a couple of months. Some days I come home from work, clean up whatever destruction the dog has made and just cry. The house is a total pigsty. I cant seem to get the motivation to DO anything. No art, no design, no music even. I just sit on the couch.
I need to get some motivation going on.
I need to figure out why I hate being alone and confront that, because it is not going away, and I worry it could really hurt my life.