Another day at home...
You know, being at home so much can really start getting to a person... but I can't say that I haven't enjoyed it. I've had more time to spend with my daughter *&* that has been great! It still amazes me how she grows *&* learns more every day!
~But at the same time, being home has got me to thinking about a lot of other things as well. Like where my life is heading? Where I'm going to be in 20 years? What I want to do with my life? *&* I haven't seemed to find an awnser to any of these. Oh well, I guess that's part of life's wonders. I've also thought about why I do things I do. I couldn't figure out why I was not getting close to anyone on the upside I did figure that out, *&* I plan on changing it. I've decided not to let my rough past slow me down now!! I've found it's hard to move on when there are so many things in your past that you've not let go of, *&* some of them you shall never let go of. Like love, once you find the love of your life you finally realize just how much hell you're willing to deal with just to be with them. It gets so hard at times you just don't know what to do. I don't deny that I am still in love with Mike, I can't do that *&* be telling the truth, but I can say that now I am not going to let another guy break my heart the way he did. I know that time heals all pain *&* I believe that! I'm willing to move on but only once my prince charming finds me....
MY Prince Charming:
1. Respectful
2. Honest
3. Trustworthy
4. A complete romantic *every now *&* then*
5. Someone who will make me smile more than cry
6. The one I can go to no matter what
7. The one I trust with my life
8. He has to respect me *&* MY DAUGHTER
9. Show's me that I'm loved
10. Someone that TRYS to understand me *because at times it's hard to*
11. Someone I can talk to about EVERYTHING
12. Someone that I can think of not only as a lover but a best friend as well
13. A guy that can look me in the eyes *&* tell me I'm his only one
14. A guy that isn't going to promise me the moon *&* stars
15. But someone that will promise to stand under them with me no matter what
~ I know seems like I'm asking for a lot when I put them in a list, but honestly that isn't all he has to be. He has to be everything I never knew I always wanted. My prince charming can't really be summed up by the list, but can give a good estement at what I would like. I can't pick who I fall in love with I figured that out in July of last year. But I am willing to comprimise. As long as when I'm with him, I feel like something special *&* he proves to me that he isn't just another BOY but a MAN then I will know I found him. Until then I'll be happy with the life I have because it's great now! Anyway, I'm gone for the nite, I love you guys each *&* everyone of you! Take care *&* Be careful! Good nite *&* sweetest dreams!
~But at the same time, being home has got me to thinking about a lot of other things as well. Like where my life is heading? Where I'm going to be in 20 years? What I want to do with my life? *&* I haven't seemed to find an awnser to any of these. Oh well, I guess that's part of life's wonders. I've also thought about why I do things I do. I couldn't figure out why I was not getting close to anyone on the upside I did figure that out, *&* I plan on changing it. I've decided not to let my rough past slow me down now!! I've found it's hard to move on when there are so many things in your past that you've not let go of, *&* some of them you shall never let go of. Like love, once you find the love of your life you finally realize just how much hell you're willing to deal with just to be with them. It gets so hard at times you just don't know what to do. I don't deny that I am still in love with Mike, I can't do that *&* be telling the truth, but I can say that now I am not going to let another guy break my heart the way he did. I know that time heals all pain *&* I believe that! I'm willing to move on but only once my prince charming finds me....
MY Prince Charming:
1. Respectful
2. Honest
3. Trustworthy
4. A complete romantic *every now *&* then*
5. Someone who will make me smile more than cry
6. The one I can go to no matter what
7. The one I trust with my life
8. He has to respect me *&* MY DAUGHTER
9. Show's me that I'm loved
10. Someone that TRYS to understand me *because at times it's hard to*
11. Someone I can talk to about EVERYTHING
12. Someone that I can think of not only as a lover but a best friend as well
13. A guy that can look me in the eyes *&* tell me I'm his only one
14. A guy that isn't going to promise me the moon *&* stars
15. But someone that will promise to stand under them with me no matter what
~ I know seems like I'm asking for a lot when I put them in a list, but honestly that isn't all he has to be. He has to be everything I never knew I always wanted. My prince charming can't really be summed up by the list, but can give a good estement at what I would like. I can't pick who I fall in love with I figured that out in July of last year. But I am willing to comprimise. As long as when I'm with him, I feel like something special *&* he proves to me that he isn't just another BOY but a MAN then I will know I found him. Until then I'll be happy with the life I have because it's great now! Anyway, I'm gone for the nite, I love you guys each *&* everyone of you! Take care *&* Be careful! Good nite *&* sweetest dreams!