i see him die a little more inside
And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dyin'
Unfaithful - Rihanna
As I sit here and listen to this song, I can't help but remember back to that day when it all happened and the look on his face when I told him. Although he said it was okay, that he was forgiving me, that he still loved me, I knew it was the worst thing I could have ever done to him. The worst part, I continued on with my explanation.."he'll always be there with me..it's not like I can ever forget him or just push him out of my life..it's too hard to explain..". With every word I said, he kept the straightest face, but his eyes told the whole story. The one thing I said I'd never do, I did, and of all people, I did it to him, of all people to possibly hurt, it was him and no words can ever change what happened. Every day I look into his eyes, I'm reminded of that day and I know to this day, I am still killing him. No matter how long it's been since that day, he never looks at me the same way again. Although to this day, it seems that everything between us is alright, it's not, it never will be. And I can't say sorry because it's too late for that. Now all I can do is feel sorry for myself and I know that even these tears that flow won't ever make up for what I did. No matter how much I cry over it, it will never change the past. I could have said no, I didn't and now I wake up every day knowing that he doesn't deserve this, that I might possibly be the most horrible bitch to ever come into his life. I just wish that before it all happened, I remembered the day he gave his full trust to me to take care of him and thought twice about how much he did love me.
This is my secret
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dyin'
Unfaithful - Rihanna
As I sit here and listen to this song, I can't help but remember back to that day when it all happened and the look on his face when I told him. Although he said it was okay, that he was forgiving me, that he still loved me, I knew it was the worst thing I could have ever done to him. The worst part, I continued on with my explanation.."he'll always be there with me..it's not like I can ever forget him or just push him out of my life..it's too hard to explain..". With every word I said, he kept the straightest face, but his eyes told the whole story. The one thing I said I'd never do, I did, and of all people, I did it to him, of all people to possibly hurt, it was him and no words can ever change what happened. Every day I look into his eyes, I'm reminded of that day and I know to this day, I am still killing him. No matter how long it's been since that day, he never looks at me the same way again. Although to this day, it seems that everything between us is alright, it's not, it never will be. And I can't say sorry because it's too late for that. Now all I can do is feel sorry for myself and I know that even these tears that flow won't ever make up for what I did. No matter how much I cry over it, it will never change the past. I could have said no, I didn't and now I wake up every day knowing that he doesn't deserve this, that I might possibly be the most horrible bitch to ever come into his life. I just wish that before it all happened, I remembered the day he gave his full trust to me to take care of him and thought twice about how much he did love me.
This is my secret