May 18, 2005 14:35
Sitting here in media with my gay sister and she's forcing me to sit here and write something new.. She's completely weird, but I love her. We go through the same things at the same time all the time. But trust me, our plan is soooo sick. She's my partner in crime and he's the Clyde to my Bonnie.
Well..yeah, if I was 18, lawd..life would be great. Yeah so I've officially given up on parents. They can go ahead and complimicate their lives even more cuz honestly, it's my life. I'm seventeen. One more year and I'm officially an adult. And watch next year. Honestly, things like this would never happen if you just gave a girl some freedom. Freedom to live her life. They even said themselves that you're only a teenager once, so might as well live it up. Well, you know what I'm trying to, but honestly, they're not letting me. Sure they think that I've gotten over th past, but I haven't. I still hold grudges. From long ago back in the day, when you ruined life the first time, I still remember that. I haven't forgotten about it. Things like that don't go away and seriously, you need to get over yourselves. I'm older now, I could care less now. I have no reason to cry over crap that isn't even legit. And the difference? This time, I know what I'm doing.
I've learned right from wrong. You can go ahead and assume whatever you want, cuz I know me. I know what I do with my life. The one thing you don' know is that I hate assumers and well, maybe that's the reason why I still hate you. My grudge is still there. The fact that you go behind my back and get in my business and won't even let me live my life, all of that contributes to the fact that once you pulled all that, I lost all respect for you. I tried to live with stupid rules. I'm 17. Next year, I'm legally an adult and legally that means you can't tell me nothing. So you should know by now, it's common sense, it's a proven fact that if you tell your child no, they're just gonna do it all the more. Curiosity, rebellion, it's all a part of life.
But since, you wanna act dumb, you wanna set all this stupidness rules, you don't wanna let me live life, you don't wanna give me freedom, you act stupid questions when you already know the answer, that's it. I give up. You can tell me anything you want right now. Tell me I can't do this, can't do that, you're just making your lives even more complimicated. Cuz I'm tired of shit like this and I'm just gonna live MY life the way I want to. Say no, I'll do it all the more. And I know deep down inside you know I'm going to. But honestly, if you keep it up, you're gonna end up losing more than you realize.
Thank you for being you and for being the sunshine in my life. I promised you and I intend on keeping that. Hate it or love it, they're gonna have to accept it.