Sleep is something I dream about.
I know HaHa. But really, I'm sure some of you are well aware of my distaste for pulling an-all-nighter. Not even for a good RPG. The first true all-nighter I pulled was the my labor. I think my biggest delusion of being a parent is being able to sleep ever again. God, my mom tells me that when I was a baby she used to vacuum while we napped. That is SO not possible with Bekah. She is so sensitive to light, sound, temp, lost pacifiers. And it seems nothing I do help her sleep. Last night, I gave her a good dinner of chicken, rice, and bananas. Then we took a nice bath and a four once bottle. I thought about giving her some Tylenol but her teeth didn't seem to be hurting her today. So at 8pm she was asleep. I took a shower and watched a finale that I had been waiting for. Then, I tired to put myself to bed at 10 last night. I wasn't tired but I was not going to hold my breath on Bekah sleeping through the night. Sure enough she woke at 11:30. I helped her back to bed, seeing how her crib is in my room. I had yet to even fall asleep once when she woke again at 1am. I tired to get her back down but she wouldn't have it. Bret came in and had to take Bekah while I cried from having no sleep. I took her back because she won't sleep for Bret. I gave her something to calm her tummy which seemed to be the problem. I was finally able to put her down at 3am. After my husband, and my roommate, both big night owls had gone to bed. It frustrates me greatly when my body still wakes me at 7:30am with only a nap (anything less than 5 hours is a nap to me.) to run my day on. She still sleeping and I sneak out to eat and check email...I know that there are those who say she should just cry it out...but I can't. It seems so wrong to me. It makes it harder that she shares our room, but I can't move out. I look forward to when Bekah is older, she has her own room and sleeps through the night, every night. Gods I am so tired. How am I supposed to go back to work like this?
PS Bekah is walking now and it's really cute.
PS Bekah is walking now and it's really cute.