giving up or giving in?
i hate going to work i hate waking up in the morning knowing that this is where ill spend my entire day. i actually feel pretty good right now mentally at least ive decided that im not going to give up on Manny but i am going to back up. i cant make him love me again but i can show him i love him and will be here for him if he ever decides he needs. me though he says he doesnt need anyone or anything. im going to try really hard to be his friend. thats what he wants so thats what ill do. i dont think he knows that i would do anything for him. he did love me very much at one time, he had great plans for us. he planned me into every aspect of his future, where we'd live, what bills we'd pay off, new cars. kids. i still want all of that with him, i cant even picture myself with anyone else.