The sectional. . .
Yesterday was the combined sectional of the saxes/trombones...and some what flutes and one trumpet..well..it was a tiring day..lets see, i woke up and i was still dead tired from having watch a movie with tiff the night before..ahahah, we watched mean girls..it as a pretty good movie..got out of bed and asked my mom if i could use the digital camera..man that thing is high tech..after a long conversation and technical difficulties with the computer..i headed of to haiyens house..i picked her up and headed to chillis..chillis food sux a monkeys butt..but afterwards, we all went to alans house..where daniel, casey, and i played pool..well, paulina soon called and we all headed over to the park to meet up with the flutes..man, did i ever feel like a kid again..sigh..afterwards we all went back to alans pad..where we played pool or watched a movie..sang a couple of tunes and it was already midnight..and i was in trouble..ahha..i gave albert..su sits..and haiyen rides **** in like 10 minutes..and rushed ****..but i ono..something bothered me..the whole day and night..i guess i looked back..and thought to myself..will i ever be the same after high school??..will i change for the better or for the worse..i mean who knows..i can turn out to be a total asshole..or a preist..ahaha..highly unlikely, but still possibilities nonetheless..i guess..i wanted to say something to someone, to anyone..just wanted to flush my feelings, hah..i was too scared to do so..so i held in everything..alan helped out at some point..and other points he had made it worse..he's like the little brother i never had..graduation is a stones throw away, and im having alot of different feelings..its twisted nipples!!
SAD : leaving high school, leaving my childhood, memories that i have, looking back on what i had, looking back on what i didn't have, wish i didn't make that one mistake that changed my high school life forever..
LOVE : love my friends, love band, love track and cross country, love high school, love all of my memeories, love sucks ass, love life, love being loved, love being looked up to, love looking up at them, love tiff, pauli, D-P(gaytap), cat, tawny, alan, casey(gay tap), and a whole lot more..
HATE : hate myself, hate the relationship i once had, hate track, hate band, hate being alone, hate graduation, hate high school, hate rowalnd high, hate love, hate life, hate leaving, hate leaving friends..
..there are alot more emotions that i can say, but at the same time i cant..cause man, theres just too many, but atleast i tried to start it..ahhaha..i guess as we get closer to graduation, we start talking about what we think we are gonna feel..maybe its the fear or excitement built up into it..but maybe it will all be different on the day of graduation..i can't even say if im gonna cry or not..all i know is that, at the beginging of the year i had wished that the day would never come..of course that is nieve, but i also wished for memories with my friends..looking back on those memories now..either sad, happy, loved or whatever..it hurts so much..ahahha like the time where tiffany was mad at daniel and i at a band competition..ahahha we were so scared but at the same time very sad..pauli tried to comfort us, but had no luck..until tiffany herself came up to us and talked to us..which turned out to be ok..it may sound weird, but looking back on that brings a smile on my face..i love them so much, and i guess that is why i feel the way i do..if there was one thing that i regret in my high school life..i have already said before..was not being with them..the memories i had this year, were by far, the most incredible of all the other years put together..and i thank them, my friends..whom i wish i had stayed with since my freshmen year and younger..ahahha, i dunno if that made sense..haha..i hope it did..
SAD : leaving high school, leaving my childhood, memories that i have, looking back on what i had, looking back on what i didn't have, wish i didn't make that one mistake that changed my high school life forever..
LOVE : love my friends, love band, love track and cross country, love high school, love all of my memeories, love sucks ass, love life, love being loved, love being looked up to, love looking up at them, love tiff, pauli, D-P(gaytap), cat, tawny, alan, casey(gay tap), and a whole lot more..
HATE : hate myself, hate the relationship i once had, hate track, hate band, hate being alone, hate graduation, hate high school, hate rowalnd high, hate love, hate life, hate leaving, hate leaving friends..
..there are alot more emotions that i can say, but at the same time i cant..cause man, theres just too many, but atleast i tried to start it..ahhaha..i guess as we get closer to graduation, we start talking about what we think we are gonna feel..maybe its the fear or excitement built up into it..but maybe it will all be different on the day of graduation..i can't even say if im gonna cry or not..all i know is that, at the beginging of the year i had wished that the day would never come..of course that is nieve, but i also wished for memories with my friends..looking back on those memories now..either sad, happy, loved or whatever..it hurts so much..ahahha like the time where tiffany was mad at daniel and i at a band competition..ahahha we were so scared but at the same time very sad..pauli tried to comfort us, but had no luck..until tiffany herself came up to us and talked to us..which turned out to be ok..it may sound weird, but looking back on that brings a smile on my face..i love them so much, and i guess that is why i feel the way i do..if there was one thing that i regret in my high school life..i have already said before..was not being with them..the memories i had this year, were by far, the most incredible of all the other years put together..and i thank them, my friends..whom i wish i had stayed with since my freshmen year and younger..ahahha, i dunno if that made sense..haha..i hope it did..