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I don't know what to do. I'm so distraught its not funny. Everything in my life is upside down right now. Things are going well overall, but some major parts of my life are inside out and there's not a damn thing I can do about it unless I just totally forget about someone. And no matter what I do, I can't do that. And its killing me to no end. I just THOUGHT I had issues before. But decide to fall for, literally FALL for, a 34 year old with an 8 month old son and an ex who is the baby mama that he lives with....and you have issues. And now he's all messed up in the head. I have people telling me this and that and this about him. My mom degrading him. Him seemingly truly caring about me and me in this twisted situation I can't find a way out of. If I was up in Nashville right now, I wouldn't be going through this. But instead I stayed. And I'm almost stuck.
I'll get there, but its so hard. I'm terrified. I know its best and I know I'll make it in music if I try. I have Chad Brock and Randy helping me.....I personally know Jason Aldean (he sings "Hicktown")'s cousin Travis and his family. I have all these things going for me and all I can think about is Mike. NOOOOOOOOOOO!!
What do I do...I'm addicted to the thought of him and I can't let it go....
I'll get there, but its so hard. I'm terrified. I know its best and I know I'll make it in music if I try. I have Chad Brock and Randy helping me.....I personally know Jason Aldean (he sings "Hicktown")'s cousin Travis and his family. I have all these things going for me and all I can think about is Mike. NOOOOOOOOOOO!!
What do I do...I'm addicted to the thought of him and I can't let it go....