b&w
Written for theatrical_muse
This isn't going to be easy to talk about because I don't like sharing things that can show a weakness. And I really don't like sharing things that people can look at and make fun of or roll their eyes at. The reason I'm doing it though is to prove that I'm where I want to be.
Sometimes I used to feel like an old black and white movie that no one wants to watch when they first set eyes on it. But once they sit down and get into it they're surprised by how much they're enjoying themselves. OK that came across sounding a bit more odd than I meant it to. What I mean is I'm not flashy or full of awesome special effects. I'm simple and don't have a whole lot of bells and whistles going for me. What I do have going for me is enough once someone gives me a chance though. The hard part is getting someone to look past what they want to assume about me.
I think the proof that this has finally happened is the fact that I've got the most special person in my life now. I had two but have decided that letting one go is the best thing for him. He's got to move on with his life and be with someone who can give him their whole heart. The reason I haven't chosen him is what I really want to explain now.
I was broken when Orli met me. I was determined never to let another woman into my life after Andrea broke my heart and I assumed that meant I wouldn't ever be in love again. I don't hate women. But I don't trust them either. I won't try to explain what happened that allowed me to let a man into my heart. If you've ever had it happen to you then I don't have to explain. If you haven't nothing I can say will ever convince you that it was very real and very special. He made me see a different side of myself. He made me feel love again because he looked past the outside and didn't make me feel as if I wasn't worthy. To be really honest I was more receptive to him because we look so much alike but it was spending time with him that made me see who he really is. If not for him I never would have been able to feel something for Tom. I love Tom dearly. He proved to me that I'm more than the simple man I appear to be. But Orli's the one who opened my heart enough for me to let Tom in. So that's why I chose him.
It's not ideal. I want to be the only one in his life but am understanding why I won't ever be. I trust that he won't hurt me and as I slowly let Tom go I'm finding myself seeing "the other man" (Orli's husband) as someone I could be with.
I don't know if I've said enough. But I've said all I want to.
This isn't going to be easy to talk about because I don't like sharing things that can show a weakness. And I really don't like sharing things that people can look at and make fun of or roll their eyes at. The reason I'm doing it though is to prove that I'm where I want to be.
Sometimes I used to feel like an old black and white movie that no one wants to watch when they first set eyes on it. But once they sit down and get into it they're surprised by how much they're enjoying themselves. OK that came across sounding a bit more odd than I meant it to. What I mean is I'm not flashy or full of awesome special effects. I'm simple and don't have a whole lot of bells and whistles going for me. What I do have going for me is enough once someone gives me a chance though. The hard part is getting someone to look past what they want to assume about me.
I think the proof that this has finally happened is the fact that I've got the most special person in my life now. I had two but have decided that letting one go is the best thing for him. He's got to move on with his life and be with someone who can give him their whole heart. The reason I haven't chosen him is what I really want to explain now.
I was broken when Orli met me. I was determined never to let another woman into my life after Andrea broke my heart and I assumed that meant I wouldn't ever be in love again. I don't hate women. But I don't trust them either. I won't try to explain what happened that allowed me to let a man into my heart. If you've ever had it happen to you then I don't have to explain. If you haven't nothing I can say will ever convince you that it was very real and very special. He made me see a different side of myself. He made me feel love again because he looked past the outside and didn't make me feel as if I wasn't worthy. To be really honest I was more receptive to him because we look so much alike but it was spending time with him that made me see who he really is. If not for him I never would have been able to feel something for Tom. I love Tom dearly. He proved to me that I'm more than the simple man I appear to be. But Orli's the one who opened my heart enough for me to let Tom in. So that's why I chose him.
It's not ideal. I want to be the only one in his life but am understanding why I won't ever be. I trust that he won't hurt me and as I slowly let Tom go I'm finding myself seeing "the other man" (Orli's husband) as someone I could be with.
I don't know if I've said enough. But I've said all I want to.