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ok as many of you know, and many more of you may not, and most of you probably aren't surprised by, I was raped seven years ago. Being a minor at the time the statute of limitations doesn't run out until 10 years after my 18th birthday. I have decided to report it. Tomorow afternoon I'm driving to Leander to sit down with Detective AJ Current and tell all the intimately horrifying details I've worked for nearly a decade to forget. I know I'm doing the right thing but I am scared. Scared that the charges wont ever leave the officer's desk. Scared that they will and then I'll have to suffer through a trial. Scared that He wont be convicted and my cover will be blown. He'll know I'm still out there, still hating him, still terrorfied of him and still so vulnerable. Scared he'll come back after me. But I'm not living in fear forever. Im choking on the bullet tomorow afternoon. I'm going to do it come hell or highwater. But I don't want to face it alone.