I dont feel so good

[shy_the_unique]

So i got scared. happens to the best of us right? But ya the break up was totally me. Ive been thinkin about it a lot lately and it really wasnt in the best interest of john or myself. im not ready to open myself up and put myself back out on the line for anyone and thats honestly not fair at ALL to john.(he deserves WAY better than that) plus hes leaving so even if i did he would leave and i wouldnt be able to really talk to him. i have issues with setting myself up for abandonment. so i think it best to back up and not get into anything really serious.

man i feel like a bitch.

you know, im really not too good for anyone

Ah well, such as it is.