Day One: 10 things you'd like to say to 10 people
Ok, so my first run through doing this, i wrote a very lengthy entry for each of the ten people. I've revised that, and tried very hard to keep each to no more than a few sentences tops. This was not easy for me lol.
1. I gotta say, i do miss you horribly. We faced what felt like impossible odds together, and yet whenever we got together to chat, neither you nor I were going to let a damn thing stop us from getting where we wanted to be. Where went "its you and me, 'till the end"? We used to be so very close, and now you go day to day without caring if i am there or not. I gotta say, i would have chased the sunset with you, and only you it seems. I wish you felt the same.
2. I'm gonna be there when you get married, move, bring home a kid from the hospital.. yep. i'll probably be there for a lot of stuff lol. and that's cool. clearly, i can't write a short message that would sum up all the things i would say to you. Not even close. I can't wait to see you succeed. I can't wait to look back on all this, and laugh and be like "damn, remember when.." maybe at that point you will be in a better mood, eh? lol. jk...
3. You give me a strength that I've never known before, and i have been able to face situations i was uncomfortable with, afraid of, strongly against, and foolishly eager to fall into holes over(I dont know if that last one quite made sense the way i wanted it to lol.) I feel like i get lost in all the many people you have in your life from time to time lol. Its all good though, because you mean the world to me, really, and I want so bad to hear of good things going your way. I'd have to say you are one of the best things to ever stumble into my life, and I get so happy whenever i can help you. You really stepped up and were selfless in helping me when I had nothing to offer you, and I will always appreciate that. I feel like I've made a lifelong friend.
4. Its unfortunate you made changes towards who you are now. I would dare say you might as well not have the same name, as you are a vastly opposite person from who i met you as. I would have sacrificed anything and everything to bring a smile to your face, come to you whenever/wherever you called, and been anything you needed, to keep your warmth in my life. You were once so kind to me, and swore i was one of the only people you felt you could ever be yourself with. If you believe I am so much lesser than the company you seek to find someday, you weren't worth half a shit anyway (and you vastly overestimated me). I hope you and the bottle/pipe take a long vacation, and maybe someday we can be friends again, but i kinda doubt it.
5. It's hard to write something to you the way i may have in the past. Wow were you important to me getting through these past years... and somehow the cycle we go in seems to happen time and time again. The friend circle we are a part of is so up to their necks in politics its disgusting.. I do expect that somehow we will be good friends again in the future. I don't know how, or when, but I think that the history we have had holds such sentimental value that you and I will have adventures later in life as well. I know we can't be done yet. I wish i was there with you right now..
6. Its really, really great sharing passions in life with you. When i do get a chance to talk with you, it always lasts for hours. It never feels like we should stop, because there's always so much more to compare. I tend to get giggly since i find you so cute, and so its kind of a bummer you don't recognize how easy it is to be close with me.. Perhaps, though, I feel more of a close bond than you do. I really didn't expect to end up getting to know you so well, and you made me feel wanted at a very delicate time that i was going through. You have, however, one thing that puts up a difficult barrier to getting to know you better, and i respectfully won't be trying to selfishly ignore that since its important to you.
7. You are the definition of good times lol. I can't think of you without thinking of being happy -- as well as reckless lol. After each grand night, i always worry that it is going to be my last time enjoying myself doing this with you. I really fear the day when its all over, but im hoping secretly that somehow you and i continue our fun times in the future in a new setting with new characters. lol. You have been very important to me, i just hope you don't move away or something because i need some people from my past to come with me wherever i end up! Don't change, please, because you are one of the only authentic people who have not changed much over the years.
8. i would very much like to have you back around.. we went a lot of places, and I was allowed to experience things I was going to miss out on. you were pretty selfless from time to time, doing me favors and allowing me to join you on excursions with no particular purpose but to feel alive for a night. I won't forget that, and its very unfortunate that whatever happened that separated us, separated us. I doubt there will be someone who is able to join me for the kinds of things we used to do, and so you will be remembered.
9. You and i have an interesting friendship. For the longest time, i had a hard time seeing you as just a friend. It was clear nothing else was going to come of us though, and so that was always totally understandable. Of course, when i was drunk, I acted bitterly anyways.. I called you a tease once, loudly, but i dont even know if you heard me, and for that i am sorry. You aren't a tease. I was just drunk. -- actually that same situation has happened like 3 times, and each time i think you may have heard because i have yelled it. wow i am a dick, huh... :[ Once i ended up buying my whole van food because "you" wanted it, just so you know. For that, its almost like i had paid you back for saying you were a tease all the time lol. anyways we have had some great times together, and definently some interesting conversations. Little do you know, i used to try so hard to catch your attention just for a night at my shows. It was part of my fondest memories onstage, and it made for some great shows.
10. ...You were the better kisser by far. By a lot. Imagine how stupid i felt... i am so sorry for your embarassment that night...
lol i don't mean to make things awkward now, so I apologize for that too.
1. I gotta say, i do miss you horribly. We faced what felt like impossible odds together, and yet whenever we got together to chat, neither you nor I were going to let a damn thing stop us from getting where we wanted to be. Where went "its you and me, 'till the end"? We used to be so very close, and now you go day to day without caring if i am there or not. I gotta say, i would have chased the sunset with you, and only you it seems. I wish you felt the same.
2. I'm gonna be there when you get married, move, bring home a kid from the hospital.. yep. i'll probably be there for a lot of stuff lol. and that's cool. clearly, i can't write a short message that would sum up all the things i would say to you. Not even close. I can't wait to see you succeed. I can't wait to look back on all this, and laugh and be like "damn, remember when.." maybe at that point you will be in a better mood, eh? lol. jk...
3. You give me a strength that I've never known before, and i have been able to face situations i was uncomfortable with, afraid of, strongly against, and foolishly eager to fall into holes over(I dont know if that last one quite made sense the way i wanted it to lol.) I feel like i get lost in all the many people you have in your life from time to time lol. Its all good though, because you mean the world to me, really, and I want so bad to hear of good things going your way. I'd have to say you are one of the best things to ever stumble into my life, and I get so happy whenever i can help you. You really stepped up and were selfless in helping me when I had nothing to offer you, and I will always appreciate that. I feel like I've made a lifelong friend.
4. Its unfortunate you made changes towards who you are now. I would dare say you might as well not have the same name, as you are a vastly opposite person from who i met you as. I would have sacrificed anything and everything to bring a smile to your face, come to you whenever/wherever you called, and been anything you needed, to keep your warmth in my life. You were once so kind to me, and swore i was one of the only people you felt you could ever be yourself with. If you believe I am so much lesser than the company you seek to find someday, you weren't worth half a shit anyway (and you vastly overestimated me). I hope you and the bottle/pipe take a long vacation, and maybe someday we can be friends again, but i kinda doubt it.
5. It's hard to write something to you the way i may have in the past. Wow were you important to me getting through these past years... and somehow the cycle we go in seems to happen time and time again. The friend circle we are a part of is so up to their necks in politics its disgusting.. I do expect that somehow we will be good friends again in the future. I don't know how, or when, but I think that the history we have had holds such sentimental value that you and I will have adventures later in life as well. I know we can't be done yet. I wish i was there with you right now..
6. Its really, really great sharing passions in life with you. When i do get a chance to talk with you, it always lasts for hours. It never feels like we should stop, because there's always so much more to compare. I tend to get giggly since i find you so cute, and so its kind of a bummer you don't recognize how easy it is to be close with me.. Perhaps, though, I feel more of a close bond than you do. I really didn't expect to end up getting to know you so well, and you made me feel wanted at a very delicate time that i was going through. You have, however, one thing that puts up a difficult barrier to getting to know you better, and i respectfully won't be trying to selfishly ignore that since its important to you.
7. You are the definition of good times lol. I can't think of you without thinking of being happy -- as well as reckless lol. After each grand night, i always worry that it is going to be my last time enjoying myself doing this with you. I really fear the day when its all over, but im hoping secretly that somehow you and i continue our fun times in the future in a new setting with new characters. lol. You have been very important to me, i just hope you don't move away or something because i need some people from my past to come with me wherever i end up! Don't change, please, because you are one of the only authentic people who have not changed much over the years.
8. i would very much like to have you back around.. we went a lot of places, and I was allowed to experience things I was going to miss out on. you were pretty selfless from time to time, doing me favors and allowing me to join you on excursions with no particular purpose but to feel alive for a night. I won't forget that, and its very unfortunate that whatever happened that separated us, separated us. I doubt there will be someone who is able to join me for the kinds of things we used to do, and so you will be remembered.
9. You and i have an interesting friendship. For the longest time, i had a hard time seeing you as just a friend. It was clear nothing else was going to come of us though, and so that was always totally understandable. Of course, when i was drunk, I acted bitterly anyways.. I called you a tease once, loudly, but i dont even know if you heard me, and for that i am sorry. You aren't a tease. I was just drunk. -- actually that same situation has happened like 3 times, and each time i think you may have heard because i have yelled it. wow i am a dick, huh... :[ Once i ended up buying my whole van food because "you" wanted it, just so you know. For that, its almost like i had paid you back for saying you were a tease all the time lol. anyways we have had some great times together, and definently some interesting conversations. Little do you know, i used to try so hard to catch your attention just for a night at my shows. It was part of my fondest memories onstage, and it made for some great shows.
10. ...You were the better kisser by far. By a lot. Imagine how stupid i felt... i am so sorry for your embarassment that night...
lol i don't mean to make things awkward now, so I apologize for that too.