It's You...Just You
Title: It's You...Just You
Chapters: 4/?
Author: shy_cookie
Genre: Romance, angst, drama
Warning: None so far Rating: Pg-13
Pairings/Characters: Taemin focus, JongHo, JongTae, 2Min, Taemin/Junho
Synopsis:Taemin is torn between two men that have no idea about his feelings, but then again, isn't love always closer than we think? Disclaimer: I don't own a thing. This is only for entertainment
Junho arrived to his dorm feeling completely crushed, not knowing what to do. He knew he shouldn't have gone to the SHINee dorm and talk to Taemin. He knew that he shouldn't have accepted Jonghyun's invitation when both met at the store. He knew it was all a terrible idea, but even like that, he still did it. And even like that he didn't bothered to hear his inner voice telling to go back home and not give himself the pain to look into Taemin's eyes and see how in love he was. How much he loved the other two members and not him.
Why did he even allowed himself to suffer like that? It was like he enjoyed it in a way. “The hell am I thinking? I don't enjoy it at all...” Junho whispered as he entered the dorm. All members looked at him, smiling, but he just ignored them and walked towards his bedroom. He wanted to be alone, he wanted to think...he wanted his heart to get rid of Taemin. He wanted to stop thinking about him! He wanted to get rid of those feelings and love someone else. Someone that would love him back.
“Hyung, are you okay?” Wooyoung asked as he opened the door, but instead on an answer he saw Junho on his bed, looking to the ceiling and not moving a single muscle. He raised a brow but then walked next to the older man. He didn't looked well. Not at all. Maybe he was sick? Probably. Lately he was looking pale and like he was going to die. He seat on the edge of the bed and continued looking to Junho without saying a word.
All of the members were worried. Lately Junho was acting weird. Since they recorded their MV he had been looking a little depressed, and didn't made sense for them since their song was probably the happiest they ever sang since Heartbeat and it was one of the funniest recordings ever. “Why are you looking so depressed?” Wooyoung asked worried and Junho looked at him with his eyes almost begging the younger to leave him alone and stop asking questions, but he knew the younger better than that. He knew Wooyoung would stay there until he got an answer that he liked or believed.
“Taemin.” was all he said for the younger man to understand. Wooyoung's lips formed a perfect 'o' and he didn't said a word. Instead, the one who did the talking was Junho. He decided that if he was going to talk about his problems, he would do it only once and no more. “I don't understand...It's so clear Jonghyun and Minho don't love him more than a little brother...and he still thinks he'll be with them! Why...”
Junho made a pause and covered his eyes with his hands, trying his best not to cry. He wouldn't allow himself to cry because of it. He wouldn't! “...Why can't he love me? I'm always there when he needs, I know what he loves and hates...I share the same passions...why can't it be me?” The singer asked but Wooyoung didn't know how to answer it. Instead he just looked to the older man and started biting his lower lip, trying to figure out what would be the best answer.
He wasn't experienced when it came to broken hearts or something like that. He never thought about it at all so how could he know? What he knew about love were things he learned from dramas and from songs. That it could be good but it also sucked. “...Maybe if you talked to..Khun?” Wooyoung asked but the only thing Junho did was roll on his bed and face the window. He just wanted to forget. “Taemin will be heart broken..sooner or later but...I won't be there to hold him. I won't...” Forget everything. It was all Junho wanted. To forget....
Still looking outside, Taemin started to remember Junho's words. That he wouldn't be with his arms opened when he needed him. No, Junho couldn't possibly mean those words! He just couldn't. Junho was his best friend! They were suppose to be there for each other. They were suppose to help each other right?
But then again...after the confession, what was suppose Taemin to think. He couldn't deny his heart skipped a couple of beats when he heard it. He never got a love confession. No, the ones from the fans didn't count. Because they only loved the image he gave, they didn't loved the real him. The one who would be depressed for almost everything, the one who hated to act cute, the one who hated to smile the whole damn time! The one who liked to be left alone. Sometimes Taemin was sure only Junho knew that side of him.
And when he heard Junho say those things...he could swear his legs turned into jelly. The way Junho was looking at him...The older never looked to him like that. It was weird, but at the same time made Taemin's insides twist. He didn't know why, but he felt so crushed for hurting Junho. “Why didn't he kissed me?” Taemin asked himself. It wasn't like he wanted Junho to kiss him, because he didn't! He just didn't understood why the older man didn't do it! Anyone in his position would do it right? So why haven't he done it?
But then he started hearing weird noises from the other room and he wasn't sure of what was it. Slowly he got up, not wanting to wake up the older men since they were sleeping so well. He left the room and closed the door behind him gently, not wanting to make any noise. “What's happening?”
He asked and as he was in front of the door of his hyungs room, he couldn't help but bite his lower lip. He knew he shouldn't be there, but his curiosity was bigger than anything else. Very gently and slowly he opened the door but he couldn't see much. Darkness was taking over the room, the only thing he could hear were small moans and whimpers.
“Ah...Minho...don't do that, please...” What was happening between the two of them? Taemin wanted to see better, he wanted to see more, but he couldn't. He just wished there was some kind of light on them so he could see at least their faces. This was why Taemin hated the dark. It didn't allowed him to see a thing. “Why not? I know you like it...”
Minho sounded breathless, but Taemin could also swear the older man was smirking he said it. But what did Jonghyun loved? What did he loved? Taemin wanted, Taemin had to know! “They will hear us...” Taemin heard the lead vocal whisper. “Let them...” Now the magnae wanted to know what was happening more than anything. But he couldn't just go inside and ask them what they were doing. They would never tell them.
But now, all Taemin could hear were those two take long, deep breaths and the bed moving. They couldn't be possibly doing...no, it wasn't possible!“Ah...I love you Minho...” Taemin could swear his heart had stopped there. It wasn't possible. It wasn't Minho who Jonghyun loved! No, it couldn't be! It had to be him! It had to be Taemin. “I love you too Hyung...more than anything...Only you..” The magnae could swear he was going to die. No, it couldn't be. His world couldn't collapse just like that. He had to be the one who his hyungs loved! It had to be him. “...no...this can't be happening...” Taemin whispered to himself. First he lost Junho, now he lost his hyungs...what was going to happen to him?