i hate this pain
i feel this pain deep inside me. everytime i spend a wonderful day with my girlfriend, i feel this stab of pain everytime i say goodbye. i hate bringing her home. though i finally figured out what causes this pain, it doesnt help to alleviate it. some people might call it separation anxiety. because in a way, it is. im anxious being away from the one that ive developed a close and strong bond to. but to me, its more than just that. its like being robbed. im having a part of me taken away and i never know when i'll see that part again. aislynn makes me whole, she completes me. shes like the missing piece of the puzzle that i so desperately tried to find. aislynn brought the balance to the chaotic and self-destructive life i was living.
i know she loves me. i know she will always love me.
i just wish i had an apartment now. because then i would never need to say goodbye, just goodnight. i miss waking up with her in my arms. or the smell of her hair as she snuggles close to me.
i miss my "other self". aislynn, i will always love you. i pray we find a place that you and i can call home soon. so i never have to feel this pain in my heart everytime i let you go.
i know she loves me. i know she will always love me.
i just wish i had an apartment now. because then i would never need to say goodbye, just goodnight. i miss waking up with her in my arms. or the smell of her hair as she snuggles close to me.
i miss my "other self". aislynn, i will always love you. i pray we find a place that you and i can call home soon. so i never have to feel this pain in my heart everytime i let you go.