I know exactly what you mean about walking into a room and just knowing that you can only stay there a certain period of time before things will be bad. I'm so awful at judging that too, and always, ALWAYS push myself too hard, and stay longer than I should.
Augh, I do this too. And I let bad linger, often, because I don't like disappointing the people that I'm there with or abruptly changing their plans because they don't want to abandon me. My actual friends would understand, but I still feel terrible for always being the one to reschedule everything at the last minute because I'm not doing well. So I try to avoid it, which means I end up soaking up way more perfume/smoke/allergen/problem-thing than I can really handle, and then I'm ill for much longer. Most people I know with lung issues have this same terrible feeling of tension between wanting to be socially responsive as if we didn't have health issues, and wanting to take care of ourselves. Denial obviously doesn't help in the long run, but I still tend to be overly optimistic about how much I can soak.
Augh, I do this too. And I let bad linger, often, because I don't like disappointing the people that I'm there with or abruptly changing their plans because they don't want to abandon me. My actual friends would understand, but I still feel terrible for always being the one to reschedule everything at the last minute because I'm not doing well. So I try to avoid it, which means I end up soaking up way more perfume/smoke/allergen/problem-thing than I can really handle, and then I'm ill for much longer. Most people I know with lung issues have this same terrible feeling of tension between wanting to be socially responsive as if we didn't have health issues, and wanting to take care of ourselves. Denial obviously doesn't help in the long run, but I still tend to be overly optimistic about how much I can soak.
Sympathy-argh on both your behalfs.
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