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[shweezia]

hmm so i went to dunkin donuts tonight with the other orphans and i got an iced coffee. and then we had to go to the mall which felt too white trash for words but i got over it. and now i have 'my boo' stuck in my head. punishment. yesterday it was four months. today i was in a four-hour study about self-harm and i made a hundred bucks. all i did was sit aroundand look at pictures of cuts. blah blah. and i had to wait for my cab in the rain. and holy fuck last night i stayed up with my roommate until like twelve and i found out that she knows my guy. and i started to miss him. andi felt bad for not calling him. and today i went to bhs to meet this lady whos in charge ofthis program. and i got kind of nervous. but yeah ive decided that these past fourmonths and one day have been a big waste of time. im never going to change.

i have been trying all day not to relapse. i have trouble.