Depressed
Arugh....been depressed all day today.
Woke up - got into another fight with my mom.
Got to school - felt so useless and unhappy
All day at school - felt lonely and sad
Got home - sat in my office and cried
But then I called Kagan and got to talk to him and his daddy for a little while so I'm not as depressed as I was before. (mom was out) But it was a really really short conversation because a minute after I started talking to him my mom pulled up into the driveway. --** Damn I just miss him so much...I wish he were here because I know that if I could just see him then I'd never feel this way. I need my bestest friend to let me know he'll always be there for me....::pout:: or at least be able to talk to him! it kills me because this is the first time I've been able to talk to him since last Friday! ;_; I'd rather go 3 months of being grounded but allowed to talk to Kagan, than go a month without talking to him whenever I need to...
Plus I'm not sure if I can go to Alexis's bufdae party and see Derek! I MISS MY TOIGER!! ;_; This is so cruel! I miss him sooo much too! And he's getting off grounded-ness this weekend too! @_@ ARUGH!! Why did I have to get grounded?!
Anywhoo...I skipped orchestra today because we had a sub and went to all 4 lunches. I ate with Lance, Daniel, Maggie, and Mikey (Lance bought me lunch, thanky!!) and then in 2nd lunch I hung aroud with Chris Taylor, Ben Gibbs, and Hunter. Then in 3rd I sat with Chad, Matt, and Murphy and walked Murphy to his next period because I was bored. I had my arm around his because I was cold as crap (left my jacket in my locker ;_;) and this black kid behind us kept saying, "Oh! Tony Hawk got himself a girlfriend! UmmHmmm! They so cute! Got that pretty lil thing on his arm, how adorable!" ::lol:: I just laughed. He asked us if we went out and I said, "No" quick. I hope I didnt hurt his (Murphy's) feelings about it. eeh, I just care too damn much.
Anyways, then I hung around Garret and Monkey during 4th lunch as usual. I stole Ben's lolipop tee hee. It was grape and nummy! ^_^ I had to ride the bus home today though, cuz Monkey said he couldnt give me a ride home, so poooie...but I had my cd player so I wasnt bored. Met this girl that sat next to me that was interested in tarot cards too.
I dont like her.
Well now I'm eating spaghetti (however u spell it) and need to finish my AP and Geometry projects that are due tomorrow.
More later...
♥less Bunny
Woke up - got into another fight with my mom.
Got to school - felt so useless and unhappy
All day at school - felt lonely and sad
Got home - sat in my office and cried
But then I called Kagan and got to talk to him and his daddy for a little while so I'm not as depressed as I was before. (mom was out) But it was a really really short conversation because a minute after I started talking to him my mom pulled up into the driveway. --** Damn I just miss him so much...I wish he were here because I know that if I could just see him then I'd never feel this way. I need my bestest friend to let me know he'll always be there for me....::pout:: or at least be able to talk to him! it kills me because this is the first time I've been able to talk to him since last Friday! ;_; I'd rather go 3 months of being grounded but allowed to talk to Kagan, than go a month without talking to him whenever I need to...
Plus I'm not sure if I can go to Alexis's bufdae party and see Derek! I MISS MY TOIGER!! ;_; This is so cruel! I miss him sooo much too! And he's getting off grounded-ness this weekend too! @_@ ARUGH!! Why did I have to get grounded?!
Anywhoo...I skipped orchestra today because we had a sub and went to all 4 lunches. I ate with Lance, Daniel, Maggie, and Mikey (Lance bought me lunch, thanky!!) and then in 2nd lunch I hung aroud with Chris Taylor, Ben Gibbs, and Hunter. Then in 3rd I sat with Chad, Matt, and Murphy and walked Murphy to his next period because I was bored. I had my arm around his because I was cold as crap (left my jacket in my locker ;_;) and this black kid behind us kept saying, "Oh! Tony Hawk got himself a girlfriend! UmmHmmm! They so cute! Got that pretty lil thing on his arm, how adorable!" ::lol:: I just laughed. He asked us if we went out and I said, "No" quick. I hope I didnt hurt his (Murphy's) feelings about it. eeh, I just care too damn much.
Anyways, then I hung around Garret and Monkey during 4th lunch as usual. I stole Ben's lolipop tee hee. It was grape and nummy! ^_^ I had to ride the bus home today though, cuz Monkey said he couldnt give me a ride home, so poooie...but I had my cd player so I wasnt bored. Met this girl that sat next to me that was interested in tarot cards too.
I dont like her.
Well now I'm eating spaghetti (however u spell it) and need to finish my AP and Geometry projects that are due tomorrow.
More later...
♥less Bunny