The Email That Hasn't Been Replied To
Hey Darling,
Well Im over at Jess's house just chilling. I tried to
call you today. however it involved calling christian
and you know he can be a bit of a jerk haha. I called
over there to see if you would be there by chance.
guess my luck is running out.
It pains me to know Im hurting you now. Im trying to
protect you from getting hurt but in the process I am.
crazy how irony screws with us.
What i mean by not hurting you is that if we did go
out again (which i desperatly want to) we wouldnt be
able to see each other until we get our licenses which
would be June. and I dont want to get your hopes up in
seeing me and then something happening and screwing it
up. then it would make you depressed and i'd get
depressed for making you be depressed. then eventually
you'd get sick of never being able to see me and break
up with me again. I'm scared for you because I dont
want to make you depressed or sad again.
I know its confusing but do you now understand what
i'm saying? and understand why im doing this no matter
how much it makes me cry and hurt me as well? I dont
want to see you suffer because you have me but cant
see me. i dont want to give you pain.
I love you so much and everyday that goes by makes me
want you more and more. My heart aches for you and
your touch. I go crazy without your phone calls or
emails. I cant stand being apart from you. youre the
only thing in my life that makes me want to cry from
happiness. i dont have anyone but you. However in
order to keep you from getting hurt I have to distance
myself from you and it tears me apart.
That day after you hung up from the phone and you just
found out about my actions, i cried so hard. you
sounded dead. like you never knew who I was or even
cared to. I must have cried all night. I cant stand
being away from you but I have to protect you. I dont
want to stay away, but I just love you too damn much.
I care for you more than any person I've ever known
and just want the best for you.
I DO want to be with you, I DO want to hear from you,
I DO want to see you everyday and have your arms
around me, EVERYDAY. but if it hurts you when we only
are able to see each other once a month or so, I cant
because it hurts you. I love you. There is nothing
else in my life that I want more than you. There is
no one else but you. I never want to hurt you, or make
you sad, or upset you, or disappoint you, or make you
angry. Thats why im doing this, because I love you.
Please write back.
♪Bunny♪
This is an email Ive sent to Derek about this whole mess. It explains everything completely. I pray he will understand now and realize just how much I love him...
Well Im over at Jess's house just chilling. I tried to
call you today. however it involved calling christian
and you know he can be a bit of a jerk haha. I called
over there to see if you would be there by chance.
guess my luck is running out.
It pains me to know Im hurting you now. Im trying to
protect you from getting hurt but in the process I am.
crazy how irony screws with us.
What i mean by not hurting you is that if we did go
out again (which i desperatly want to) we wouldnt be
able to see each other until we get our licenses which
would be June. and I dont want to get your hopes up in
seeing me and then something happening and screwing it
up. then it would make you depressed and i'd get
depressed for making you be depressed. then eventually
you'd get sick of never being able to see me and break
up with me again. I'm scared for you because I dont
want to make you depressed or sad again.
I know its confusing but do you now understand what
i'm saying? and understand why im doing this no matter
how much it makes me cry and hurt me as well? I dont
want to see you suffer because you have me but cant
see me. i dont want to give you pain.
I love you so much and everyday that goes by makes me
want you more and more. My heart aches for you and
your touch. I go crazy without your phone calls or
emails. I cant stand being apart from you. youre the
only thing in my life that makes me want to cry from
happiness. i dont have anyone but you. However in
order to keep you from getting hurt I have to distance
myself from you and it tears me apart.
That day after you hung up from the phone and you just
found out about my actions, i cried so hard. you
sounded dead. like you never knew who I was or even
cared to. I must have cried all night. I cant stand
being away from you but I have to protect you. I dont
want to stay away, but I just love you too damn much.
I care for you more than any person I've ever known
and just want the best for you.
I DO want to be with you, I DO want to hear from you,
I DO want to see you everyday and have your arms
around me, EVERYDAY. but if it hurts you when we only
are able to see each other once a month or so, I cant
because it hurts you. I love you. There is nothing
else in my life that I want more than you. There is
no one else but you. I never want to hurt you, or make
you sad, or upset you, or disappoint you, or make you
angry. Thats why im doing this, because I love you.
Please write back.
♪Bunny♪
This is an email Ive sent to Derek about this whole mess. It explains everything completely. I pray he will understand now and realize just how much I love him...