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Just realized this is actually more relevant to this journal :D; tl;dr for relevance, I had a dream that involved Kame. AND FROM THAT, I came to the realization that I've spent so long with my attention focused on the wrong areas of Kame's personality. I always write, draw and think of Kame as being moody. Partly because I absolutely believe he is sometimes, and because it compliments and balances out Jin's immaturity, but mainly because I've always hated the stereotype of his personality. When I started writing fics seriously to post, I was so determined I wouldn't write Kame like all of the weak emotional ones that I've disliked so much, I made him stoic and aggressive. I made Jin the loving and emotional partner while Kame found it all kind of irritating and silly, but occassionaly let the cracks in his cold personality show because Jin's love is just so overwhelming it's hard not to get caught up in it sometimes. He's impatient, tends to not be playful and show affection unless he wants it to lead to sex, and doesn't often humour Jin being snuggly/refuses to acknowledge that he enjoys it. I've taken his 'relationships are all about the chase' and turned it into him finding relationships boring and claustrophobic unless he has the scope to leave on account of never having been that keen. And while I don't think it's all misplaced, I've just been missing out on this incredible aspect of how he could behave in a relationship. This Kame in my dream didn't at all seem 'OOC' of the real one, but was just the side of him that I've avoided for fear of it turning into weakness and dependency on Jin. I'm really hoping I can explore this side of him some more now and have him stop being such an ice queen ♥
I hope if anyone notices me not doing this they'll kick me :I
I hope if anyone notices me not doing this they'll kick me :I