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[shutupriley]

i'm feeling my god
when my eyes are closed
when my soul comes out through my throat

i'm seeing my god
he is showing me beauty and pain at its finest

i'm talking to my god
in an attempt to explain myself

i'm asking my god
to sit with me
and help me put together the peices of myself he has made

i'm apologizing to my god
i feel his shaking head when he is not proud
i treat him like a stranger

i'm thanking my god
for fingerpainting the sky with clouds
when i envision my blue breath in through my nose
down to my balloon lungs
into my unstoppable bloodstream

i'm telling god that i know him
and i know he is not convinced

i'm pleading to my god
to tell me something.