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If I sit back and think..... and i really don't want to because my head already hurts. A lot of shit is going on in my life and my family's. But I'm pretty much content because.... i actually don't know why but i am. I guess it's just because I've matured and have actually found myself. I'm coming to terms with me, who has always been my own worst enemy. Anyways i just know the storm isn't going to last long there's a blessing for me and mine in '09.
I am glad to know that my dad said he's going to pretty much be here in Michigan and so is my sister. I really miss my dad but him and his wife have got to move closer. My sister know she about to stay her black ass here in Michigan with me.
Pray for my family y'all.
I'm still at good ole Tim Hortons living paycheck to paycheck but I can't complain too much at least I got a job! I'm still in a shitty ass relationship with david but I know i will get out of it soon and get some closure.
Pray for me!!!!
I'm always tellin these no good guys I mess with that they will remember me years down the line as a good woman. Words have power. I had a VERY "casual" relationship with this guy two years ago before i met David. I liked him but he wasn't feelin me on that level and he ended up going to jail. Now two going on three years later he's calling me trying to see if he still got it. PLEASE!!!! I'm almost offended that he even considers me an option. I don't have anything against him but i ain't trying to relive when i was 18 acting like a pathetic ho. I wrote him back like a week ago and he still hasn't replied back. Yes i did tell him str8 up that me and MY MAN go thru a LOT of bullshit and he's very jealous but he aint going no damn where & neither am I seems. He was in his letter trying to get in my head no nigga get inside ya own damn head cuz u in imprisoned and I'm free. But he been in prison for two years and still sound like the same weak ass that I was trippin over when I was 18. Y'all I'm 21. I don't think I was being mean. I don't care if we pen pals. But I just had to put it out there that ain't shit poppin besides us just being cool. What can I say??? Been there done that. And once I'm done... I'm done. Maybe I kept it TOO real.
But I'm just working on getting my shit together. Got to. It's just me here. Me, myself and I. I love David and 4 the most part I think he loves me. But he confuses the hell out of me cuz he's SO immature and he's got so many issues. So I'm gone just let him do him and I'm gone do me. He knows he doesn't want to live without me thats why he never lets me go and mayb I can't let him go either but somethings gotta give. I'm growing and he's not and I'm not amused anymore.
I plan on havin my car by the summer. Let's c what happens...
I gotta shout out my sister in law!!! i love her to death. She family no matter what goes down between her and my brother. She feel more like a sister to me than my biological one. And my sister in law gets on my nerves just like my other one. But I hope both my sisters know that the bigger picture is that I will always love them and be there for them. Get your shit right
My quote of the year:
"There's a blessing for me AND mine in '09"
My quote of the day:
"What can I say? Maybe I kept it TOO real. Being unreal and fake is better for their imagination."
I am glad to know that my dad said he's going to pretty much be here in Michigan and so is my sister. I really miss my dad but him and his wife have got to move closer. My sister know she about to stay her black ass here in Michigan with me.
Pray for my family y'all.
I'm still at good ole Tim Hortons living paycheck to paycheck but I can't complain too much at least I got a job! I'm still in a shitty ass relationship with david but I know i will get out of it soon and get some closure.
Pray for me!!!!
I'm always tellin these no good guys I mess with that they will remember me years down the line as a good woman. Words have power. I had a VERY "casual" relationship with this guy two years ago before i met David. I liked him but he wasn't feelin me on that level and he ended up going to jail. Now two going on three years later he's calling me trying to see if he still got it. PLEASE!!!! I'm almost offended that he even considers me an option. I don't have anything against him but i ain't trying to relive when i was 18 acting like a pathetic ho. I wrote him back like a week ago and he still hasn't replied back. Yes i did tell him str8 up that me and MY MAN go thru a LOT of bullshit and he's very jealous but he aint going no damn where & neither am I seems. He was in his letter trying to get in my head no nigga get inside ya own damn head cuz u in imprisoned and I'm free. But he been in prison for two years and still sound like the same weak ass that I was trippin over when I was 18. Y'all I'm 21. I don't think I was being mean. I don't care if we pen pals. But I just had to put it out there that ain't shit poppin besides us just being cool. What can I say??? Been there done that. And once I'm done... I'm done. Maybe I kept it TOO real.
But I'm just working on getting my shit together. Got to. It's just me here. Me, myself and I. I love David and 4 the most part I think he loves me. But he confuses the hell out of me cuz he's SO immature and he's got so many issues. So I'm gone just let him do him and I'm gone do me. He knows he doesn't want to live without me thats why he never lets me go and mayb I can't let him go either but somethings gotta give. I'm growing and he's not and I'm not amused anymore.
I plan on havin my car by the summer. Let's c what happens...
I gotta shout out my sister in law!!! i love her to death. She family no matter what goes down between her and my brother. She feel more like a sister to me than my biological one. And my sister in law gets on my nerves just like my other one. But I hope both my sisters know that the bigger picture is that I will always love them and be there for them. Get your shit right
My quote of the year:
"There's a blessing for me AND mine in '09"
My quote of the day:
"What can I say? Maybe I kept it TOO real. Being unreal and fake is better for their imagination."