Esteem.
I just want to work harder and stop worrying about what others think about me. If only I can immerse myself in work and stop any interaction with any human beings. Just leave me alone and I will still grow.
But there's no way I can improve without certain probing from others. It's because of what you said... or rather, what I feel that you were trying to say - that I am not good enough - I just have to do whatever I can to prove you wrong. To prove that I can be as good as you want me to be... or even better.
The best satisfaction I get most likely doesn't come from other people's praises. It only comes when I feel that I have outdone myself, which is getting seldom. I am afraid I will just end up useless.
So, maybe it's all for the best when you make me feel like the lowest being on earth... when you make me feel that I haven't done anything to be proud of.
I'll do something(s) to make you regret your words and how you think of me. And then you shall see.
But there's no way I can improve without certain probing from others. It's because of what you said... or rather, what I feel that you were trying to say - that I am not good enough - I just have to do whatever I can to prove you wrong. To prove that I can be as good as you want me to be... or even better.
The best satisfaction I get most likely doesn't come from other people's praises. It only comes when I feel that I have outdone myself, which is getting seldom. I am afraid I will just end up useless.
So, maybe it's all for the best when you make me feel like the lowest being on earth... when you make me feel that I haven't done anything to be proud of.
I'll do something(s) to make you regret your words and how you think of me. And then you shall see.