Isn't it strange...
..how when everything is going well, most people are unhappy.
It's like "The Last Kiss". "There are no more surprises..." "That's boring!" "I know..."
With me I think that I think things are too good to be true. I don't trust it. I am waiting for something bad to happen around the corner so I can go "Ha! I knew that would happen! I told you!" and at least I won't be gullible...I didn't let my guard down. (Especially when it comes to relationships) I know this is true but even as I think about it I know it is ridiculous. Like most things though...it just goes in a loop. ha ha ha.
Translation:
Ever since I basically started high school. I imagined/really wished my life would be exactly how it is now. I realized that college right after high school wasn't for me, (this was scary cause it was not what my family wanted me to do and realizing what you want for yourself at 14 is intense) I wanted to travel really badly and would watch any show about other countries/anthropology, I wanted a partner in crime to do all of this with and superficially (I was reminded of this one this summer by Caitlin) I imagined I would have a foreign boyfriend. ha ha ha ha
Weird how life works, huh?
I am trying really hard to go "Okay. This is what you want. You deserve it. There are no catches. Enjoy it. You're young and even if everything goes wrong...you still have another chance at life, and another and another so just have fun!"
I have been reading like a mad man this year. I am reading "White Fang" by Jack London right now. Since I started this reading frenzy I am realizing a lot about myself as a young kid. I read ALL THE TIME until I was 12 or 13. What I am realizing now is I read pretty hard books when I was 7-9. I read White Fang then (I didn't know til I started reading it now), I read almost all of the Chronicles of Narnia, etc. All of my games of "pretending" i.e "house" etc...were based on books. I played "Hatchet" so often for years. Also, my mom told me that I would direct my playdates, meaing I would tell my friends "Alright now you say this..." I would play males and females, old people and young people, animals, etc etc.
I was telling Stas "It's strange that I understood a lot of the books I read when I was little". He replied "Like your mom said 'pretty much as soon as she could talk, she talked like an adult and always talked to adults." True. I remember even telling my second grade teacher: "We should watch the movie 'A Christmas Story' but they say that Santa isn't real and a few bad words so maybe it isn't appropriate." ha ha ha
Also, about books, Joanne and Branden! I have "Confederacy of Dunces" and "The Stranger" waiting for me at the library. I got them sent from another library and they sent me an email saying they are waiting for me.
Another thing, I checked out a couple books/cds for learning Spanish from the library. Stas knows almost no Spanish and all of mine disapeared when I went to Hawaii plus I wasn't too good before anyway. So...we are going to do Spanish lessons together! Woo!
We have been very good about excercising since we got here. Going to the gym 2 to 3 times a week at least. We both noticed that we still have little bellies though...and we didn't in Hawaii...so what was missing?
BIKES!
I got a classic cruiser at the thrift store for $35. It's so badass. Made in Ohio, wheels made in Holland, and transmission (yeah the chain doesn't switch from gear to gear on the pedal...it's inside the wheel instead) made in Japan. This bike is so cool for riding casually around the neighborhood...and for looking awesome but it's like having a really hot boyfriend that doesn't like girls. I need a bike with more gears because I want to use it to bike all around town. I have been doing this with this bike but it is not very comfortable, doesn't handle bumpy roads weel and only has 3 gears so it is intense to go long distances.
So...clean this one up list it on Craigslist for more, since vintage bikes are going for at least $75 on there, and get a bike like the one I had in Hawaii! Woo!
Today we're going to an IMAX movie. Stas has never seen an IMAX. I am a glutton for being with people the first time they experience something awesome. We are seeing one about going down the Colorado through the Grand Canyon. Woo!
I finally learned to ride a scooter. By learned I mean got to practice. I have pictures but we can't find the camera they are on currently so when I do...be ready.
Off-topic wrap-up:
"The Grey Album" by Danger Mouse is a mix of the rapping of Jay-Z's "Black Album" and the music of The Beatles' "White Album" and I love it. Funny thing? I don't like Jay-Z or The Beatles.
How strange.
It's like "The Last Kiss". "There are no more surprises..." "That's boring!" "I know..."
With me I think that I think things are too good to be true. I don't trust it. I am waiting for something bad to happen around the corner so I can go "Ha! I knew that would happen! I told you!" and at least I won't be gullible...I didn't let my guard down. (Especially when it comes to relationships) I know this is true but even as I think about it I know it is ridiculous. Like most things though...it just goes in a loop. ha ha ha.
Translation:
Ever since I basically started high school. I imagined/really wished my life would be exactly how it is now. I realized that college right after high school wasn't for me, (this was scary cause it was not what my family wanted me to do and realizing what you want for yourself at 14 is intense) I wanted to travel really badly and would watch any show about other countries/anthropology, I wanted a partner in crime to do all of this with and superficially (I was reminded of this one this summer by Caitlin) I imagined I would have a foreign boyfriend. ha ha ha ha
Weird how life works, huh?
I am trying really hard to go "Okay. This is what you want. You deserve it. There are no catches. Enjoy it. You're young and even if everything goes wrong...you still have another chance at life, and another and another so just have fun!"
I have been reading like a mad man this year. I am reading "White Fang" by Jack London right now. Since I started this reading frenzy I am realizing a lot about myself as a young kid. I read ALL THE TIME until I was 12 or 13. What I am realizing now is I read pretty hard books when I was 7-9. I read White Fang then (I didn't know til I started reading it now), I read almost all of the Chronicles of Narnia, etc. All of my games of "pretending" i.e "house" etc...were based on books. I played "Hatchet" so often for years. Also, my mom told me that I would direct my playdates, meaing I would tell my friends "Alright now you say this..." I would play males and females, old people and young people, animals, etc etc.
I was telling Stas "It's strange that I understood a lot of the books I read when I was little". He replied "Like your mom said 'pretty much as soon as she could talk, she talked like an adult and always talked to adults." True. I remember even telling my second grade teacher: "We should watch the movie 'A Christmas Story' but they say that Santa isn't real and a few bad words so maybe it isn't appropriate." ha ha ha
Also, about books, Joanne and Branden! I have "Confederacy of Dunces" and "The Stranger" waiting for me at the library. I got them sent from another library and they sent me an email saying they are waiting for me.
Another thing, I checked out a couple books/cds for learning Spanish from the library. Stas knows almost no Spanish and all of mine disapeared when I went to Hawaii plus I wasn't too good before anyway. So...we are going to do Spanish lessons together! Woo!
We have been very good about excercising since we got here. Going to the gym 2 to 3 times a week at least. We both noticed that we still have little bellies though...and we didn't in Hawaii...so what was missing?
BIKES!
I got a classic cruiser at the thrift store for $35. It's so badass. Made in Ohio, wheels made in Holland, and transmission (yeah the chain doesn't switch from gear to gear on the pedal...it's inside the wheel instead) made in Japan. This bike is so cool for riding casually around the neighborhood...and for looking awesome but it's like having a really hot boyfriend that doesn't like girls. I need a bike with more gears because I want to use it to bike all around town. I have been doing this with this bike but it is not very comfortable, doesn't handle bumpy roads weel and only has 3 gears so it is intense to go long distances.
So...clean this one up list it on Craigslist for more, since vintage bikes are going for at least $75 on there, and get a bike like the one I had in Hawaii! Woo!
Today we're going to an IMAX movie. Stas has never seen an IMAX. I am a glutton for being with people the first time they experience something awesome. We are seeing one about going down the Colorado through the Grand Canyon. Woo!
I finally learned to ride a scooter. By learned I mean got to practice. I have pictures but we can't find the camera they are on currently so when I do...be ready.
Off-topic wrap-up:
"The Grey Album" by Danger Mouse is a mix of the rapping of Jay-Z's "Black Album" and the music of The Beatles' "White Album" and I love it. Funny thing? I don't like Jay-Z or The Beatles.
How strange.