meet me by the water tonight....
I started this project called 365 on flickr.com. Everyday for a year you have to take a new picture of yourself. At first I didn't really want to join because I don't exactly think I'm the most beautiful girl. But then I took this photo, it's actually my DAY 1, and it made me realize that maybe I am beautiful, not in a supermodel way or anything like that, but in my own way. I decided to post the photo, which was a huge step for me considering I had never done anything like it. The feeling after wards was like a self discovery, like I had finally come face to face with all the horrible things that have been said over the years and I realized none of it matter. The photo I took was of me without my eye.
I've come to realize that being with him I've stopped criticizing myself as much, I've opened up. It's an amazing feeling to have someone who makes you feel like no one else is around, like the only people in the room are you and him. For the first time, in a very very long time, I feel safe. I know when I'm with him no one can harm me.
Adam, Chris and I are going to the Monster Con on Saturday, I'm so excited. It's my first horror convention ever! I feel like such a noob but it's not like I had the chance to go before.
Tonight Julie made lasagna and I invited him over, everyone picked on me of course. Alicia was saying how she bakes, and Julie how she cooks and Adam says "well what do you do?" and I just drank my drink and was quiet lol. Then my mom says "She can make a mean cup of tea!" haha. I was like great now he's gonna make fun of me for that for the rest of the night, and of course, he did lol. He calls me Lizasaurous Rex cause when it comes time to pay i move my arms like a dinosaur hahahaha. He's such a nut. He has like a new weird name for me everyday. He even said he's gonna write a song about it lol. He's been so supportive of my photography though and has even helped me with ideas, and has modeled for me lol, as much as he hates it :).
I can't wait for Autumn. I like the cold. Random, I know heh. But I think I better get to bed I open tomorrow.
Night all..
I've come to realize that being with him I've stopped criticizing myself as much, I've opened up. It's an amazing feeling to have someone who makes you feel like no one else is around, like the only people in the room are you and him. For the first time, in a very very long time, I feel safe. I know when I'm with him no one can harm me.
Adam, Chris and I are going to the Monster Con on Saturday, I'm so excited. It's my first horror convention ever! I feel like such a noob but it's not like I had the chance to go before.
Tonight Julie made lasagna and I invited him over, everyone picked on me of course. Alicia was saying how she bakes, and Julie how she cooks and Adam says "well what do you do?" and I just drank my drink and was quiet lol. Then my mom says "She can make a mean cup of tea!" haha. I was like great now he's gonna make fun of me for that for the rest of the night, and of course, he did lol. He calls me Lizasaurous Rex cause when it comes time to pay i move my arms like a dinosaur hahahaha. He's such a nut. He has like a new weird name for me everyday. He even said he's gonna write a song about it lol. He's been so supportive of my photography though and has even helped me with ideas, and has modeled for me lol, as much as he hates it :).
I can't wait for Autumn. I like the cold. Random, I know heh. But I think I better get to bed I open tomorrow.
Night all..