Waiting for the 'Merry' in Merry Christmas
Xmas has been on my mind for so long now. I knew that I wouldnt be able to afford it if I didnt spread the shopping out, so I started buying in September. A few presents here, a few there. I only have one left to buy, and a couple to send. I decorated my apt, and my cube at work as well. I wasn't really in the mood to expend as much energy as I usually do, although, if you don't know me, you can't tell. I know in my mind that the day is this Saturday. My presents arrived from my mom and dad last week, and I wanted to open them right away. I love the surprise, and I force myself to wait for xmas morning. I do not open presents before then, ever. I might shake them, but I dont peek, and I dont hunt them out to see what I get before it's wrapped. I never have. I love the anticipation, it's often as good as the actual event. I whine and bitch and moan about wanting to open my presents, but still I wait.
So I know the day is Saturday, but I don't feel it. It just seems like it's still off in the future. I havent noticed the inexorable press of days.
Every year I host Xmas at my place. We have an "Orphan Xmas". Those of us whose family are not here, and who can't go home to visit have dinner at my place, and we often go see a movie. The past 3 years, it was whichever LotR film was being released. This year some of my friends are on a highly supervised diet and won't be able to have dinner. So, I've quasi "canceled" Xmas. It will instead be me, Mark and a single friend. I'm actually looking forward to it, a very quiet Xmas. I don't think I was in the mood for anything more, really.
I'm distracted.
So I know the day is Saturday, but I don't feel it. It just seems like it's still off in the future. I havent noticed the inexorable press of days.
Every year I host Xmas at my place. We have an "Orphan Xmas". Those of us whose family are not here, and who can't go home to visit have dinner at my place, and we often go see a movie. The past 3 years, it was whichever LotR film was being released. This year some of my friends are on a highly supervised diet and won't be able to have dinner. So, I've quasi "canceled" Xmas. It will instead be me, Mark and a single friend. I'm actually looking forward to it, a very quiet Xmas. I don't think I was in the mood for anything more, really.
I'm distracted.