i get lonely but i get along i still think about you is that wrong?
holy shit i'm going to hell. lately all ive been thinking about is how much i hate my mom & myself & how im mad that i love all of my friends SO much, but yet i dont feel like they do me. i hate being depressed like this for no reason at all.. like today, i'm just sitting there listening to music & cleaning my room and all of a sudden i burst into tears and i'm talking to God (and all yall know that i'm the least religious person alive!) telling him to give me a break and make mom realize that i'm not happy anymore, because of her and because of myself and that i need medication to help me be happy. wtf?! i better not be like this all summer..i'm going to die! ugh. i hate this feeling so much but it never feels like it fully goes away! :(
today was my first day of summer.. i slept in late @ lisa's, came home, & have been sitting around with nothing to do all day. tonight ashley & megan are coming over while mom's going out, i'd really like to see and talk with cory but whatever i don't get the feeling that he wants to, ohwell. tomorrow i'm hopefully going to hang out with lauren (mcd) after she gets home and after i get wake up. we'll see.
i got $22 in tips the other night after everyone came in after graduation. i'm so sad that my buddies graduated by it's all good, they know i'll miss them, they'll miss me, but i know this isn't the last time i'll ever see them. :/
i think i'm done. i'm just in a rotten, rainy-day kind of mood and i needed to get some stuff off my shoulders and the other stuff, well, it needs to stay inside because i don't want the whole world knowing every little thought that goes through my mind.
today was my first day of summer.. i slept in late @ lisa's, came home, & have been sitting around with nothing to do all day. tonight ashley & megan are coming over while mom's going out, i'd really like to see and talk with cory but whatever i don't get the feeling that he wants to, ohwell. tomorrow i'm hopefully going to hang out with lauren (mcd) after she gets home and after i get wake up. we'll see.
i got $22 in tips the other night after everyone came in after graduation. i'm so sad that my buddies graduated by it's all good, they know i'll miss them, they'll miss me, but i know this isn't the last time i'll ever see them. :/
i think i'm done. i'm just in a rotten, rainy-day kind of mood and i needed to get some stuff off my shoulders and the other stuff, well, it needs to stay inside because i don't want the whole world knowing every little thought that goes through my mind.