The beginning of the end.
There has been a reason that I have not been active on LJ. It's a mix between depression, frustration, naive hopefullness, and solomn acceptance.
My last day at work here in Jacksonville is Feb 22nd. I report to my new command Mar. 14th. I learned early on that I would not be able to live out in town once I get to the ship, which means that I will have to store my furniture. That, of course, costs money. So by going to my new command not only am I taking a $1,000 paycut but I'm gaining a new bill.
On top of all of this, I'll be in Virginia. I hate Virginia! Norfolk sucks, sucks, sucks!!! Once again, I'm loosing my Florida!
I've been trying to fight this by running it up the chain of command on the Bataan. Today I found out that I cannot fight this. I even tried calling my detailer to get new orders but that will not work either. It looks like my fate for the next two years is sealed.
Just as I gained my independence again it's going to get yanked away. It's thinks like this that encourage me not to reenlist. Not that that was ever an option in my mind but it really is not now. lol
I've been spending my time partly dreading the future and partly living in the present enjoying what I have now. It's important that I do that. Besides, it seems that my audiance on LJ has dropped of to two people. Needless to say, I have been preoccupied.
Well, the only positive thing I can think of this news bringing is that I know what direction my life is heading toward.
I'm trying to be positive about this but it's so fucking hard! Hard, I say! lol
My last day at work here in Jacksonville is Feb 22nd. I report to my new command Mar. 14th. I learned early on that I would not be able to live out in town once I get to the ship, which means that I will have to store my furniture. That, of course, costs money. So by going to my new command not only am I taking a $1,000 paycut but I'm gaining a new bill.
On top of all of this, I'll be in Virginia. I hate Virginia! Norfolk sucks, sucks, sucks!!! Once again, I'm loosing my Florida!
I've been trying to fight this by running it up the chain of command on the Bataan. Today I found out that I cannot fight this. I even tried calling my detailer to get new orders but that will not work either. It looks like my fate for the next two years is sealed.
Just as I gained my independence again it's going to get yanked away. It's thinks like this that encourage me not to reenlist. Not that that was ever an option in my mind but it really is not now. lol
I've been spending my time partly dreading the future and partly living in the present enjoying what I have now. It's important that I do that. Besides, it seems that my audiance on LJ has dropped of to two people. Needless to say, I have been preoccupied.
Well, the only positive thing I can think of this news bringing is that I know what direction my life is heading toward.
I'm trying to be positive about this but it's so fucking hard! Hard, I say! lol