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i do love people so much. but enough is enough. i think i make more time for socializing then i do for getting time to do what i want becuase i feel bad if i tell someone i can't hang out.
i don't have time for anything i want to do unless its ten or eleven at night and by that time, i'm too tired to do anything.
i couldn't even get enough study time in becuase i had to run with anna, i had to hang out with rob, i had to see shane today.....not that i don't love spending time with these people, but i need to start telling people "sorry, i can't" its okay to be a little selfish right?
yes i would much rather get to hang out with these people than study for exams, but i do have to prioritize myself. becuase if i don't, i'm going to get even more stressed out than i am. there are too many people to keep track of! i love them all and i'm not being like " look at me i have so many friends " i just need some alone time. but i'm a little hypocritical becuase there are some people that i want a piece of.
well and i just want to do things in my life that i just wnat to do. and its not fun to come home and hear your parents say no. last time i checked i was 18 ... but not even that. its my life. mine min emine mienminemienim mien!MINE. the end. it just is. and i want to play piano at ten thirty at night so i need a house. not an apartment a house. a solid house so i can just do whatever i want and walk around in my undies. and buy organic food.
i smell bad.
i looked super cute today.
and i wish i had someone to hold me. i don't ever wish that until i get stressed out. maybe thats why i was hanging on jason today.
why does my mom keep calling me hateful.?
happiness:
k els h u3 4: okay cute boy
LOVERas anACTOR: okay cuter girl.
unhappiness:
"you're dad doesn't think very much of you"
well thats nice.
i don't have time for anything i want to do unless its ten or eleven at night and by that time, i'm too tired to do anything.
i couldn't even get enough study time in becuase i had to run with anna, i had to hang out with rob, i had to see shane today.....not that i don't love spending time with these people, but i need to start telling people "sorry, i can't" its okay to be a little selfish right?
yes i would much rather get to hang out with these people than study for exams, but i do have to prioritize myself. becuase if i don't, i'm going to get even more stressed out than i am. there are too many people to keep track of! i love them all and i'm not being like " look at me i have so many friends " i just need some alone time. but i'm a little hypocritical becuase there are some people that i want a piece of.
well and i just want to do things in my life that i just wnat to do. and its not fun to come home and hear your parents say no. last time i checked i was 18 ... but not even that. its my life. mine min emine mienminemienim mien!MINE. the end. it just is. and i want to play piano at ten thirty at night so i need a house. not an apartment a house. a solid house so i can just do whatever i want and walk around in my undies. and buy organic food.
i smell bad.
i looked super cute today.
and i wish i had someone to hold me. i don't ever wish that until i get stressed out. maybe thats why i was hanging on jason today.
why does my mom keep calling me hateful.?
happiness:
k els h u3 4: okay cute boy
LOVERas anACTOR: okay cuter girl.
unhappiness:
"you're dad doesn't think very much of you"
well thats nice.