there's a thin line
i have a lot of thing that i love and hate at the same time.
i often find myself conflicted about just anything.
really.
i never listen to my guy and go with my second guess and end up really
...disappointed.
tonight i had to return a salad at dinner cause the
radicchio was way to fucking violently bitter.
it was uneatable.
our server took it back and i refused anything in its place.
when the check came the salad was on the bill....
should i have said something???
i was conflicted the whole time....my mind spinning.
so of course i went with my second reasoning and payed for the salad but left
the bare minimum as a tip.
when i knew the whole goddamn time
i should have said, 'i took two bites of that salad, i really dont think i should pay for some thing i didnt consume"
but i didnt say anything.
and see, this has been my entire existence.
a huge bitter salad.
and i pay for it every time i get handed it.
what is it.
part coward.
part self-doubt
part inadequacy
my friend (whom i had dinner with this evening)
is in a hideous relationship.
(she cheats, controls and manipulates him to get what she wants ie: iphone, jewelry)
like normally i will not associate people who treat other
people this way
but ive known the girl since jr. high and so its hard to just break it off.
anyway...
the whole time i wanted to yell at her and tell her what a monster she is being to
this guy and how can she even live with herself??
but i didnt...
i listened biting my tongue.
who am i to tell her how she should be....
god knows i've done my fair share of being mean to boyfriends
but they deserved it!!!!(trust me there IS such a thing as deserving to be cheated on etc.)
anyway...
but her poor boyfriend is a miracle of a guy....
he's unfortunately not a man.
that is his demise
that is her trophy.
so everyday im hating and loving things.
everywhere.
i often find myself conflicted about just anything.
really.
i never listen to my guy and go with my second guess and end up really
...disappointed.
tonight i had to return a salad at dinner cause the
radicchio was way to fucking violently bitter.
it was uneatable.
our server took it back and i refused anything in its place.
when the check came the salad was on the bill....
should i have said something???
i was conflicted the whole time....my mind spinning.
so of course i went with my second reasoning and payed for the salad but left
the bare minimum as a tip.
when i knew the whole goddamn time
i should have said, 'i took two bites of that salad, i really dont think i should pay for some thing i didnt consume"
but i didnt say anything.
and see, this has been my entire existence.
a huge bitter salad.
and i pay for it every time i get handed it.
what is it.
part coward.
part self-doubt
part inadequacy
my friend (whom i had dinner with this evening)
is in a hideous relationship.
(she cheats, controls and manipulates him to get what she wants ie: iphone, jewelry)
like normally i will not associate people who treat other
people this way
but ive known the girl since jr. high and so its hard to just break it off.
anyway...
the whole time i wanted to yell at her and tell her what a monster she is being to
this guy and how can she even live with herself??
but i didnt...
i listened biting my tongue.
who am i to tell her how she should be....
god knows i've done my fair share of being mean to boyfriends
but they deserved it!!!!(trust me there IS such a thing as deserving to be cheated on etc.)
anyway...
but her poor boyfriend is a miracle of a guy....
he's unfortunately not a man.
that is his demise
that is her trophy.
so everyday im hating and loving things.
everywhere.