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I've decided this move is gonna make me fat. I mean it's not even for sure yet and I'm stressing out so freakin much. My mom bought some ice cream Sat night, and I diff finished yesterday afternoon all by myself. Today I've eaten nothing but cookies and milk and goldfish. Idk what it is with eating but it just takes all the stress away in a way. I've also been drumming a lot lately... I think that helps with the stress too. Everytime something crappy happens I go to the drums and the stress goes away for that one moment it's nice. I've been thinking a lot in just these past two or three days. I've diff taken all of my friends for granted. Now that it's a posibility that I might be leaving, there's so many ppl and place and things that I wanted to do and get to know better. I just wish that I knew for sure already so that I could just accept that I'm leaving or not if I'm not leaving.
God this move has also been making me think a lot of my friends that I'm close to already. Oh how much I'm gonna miss them. I feel like literally a piece of my heart is being ripped out. They've been like my family for the past two years. They've been like big sisters through my first two years of high school. Now that they were leaving I felt like they were finally letting me go out on my own to make my own memories in high school. But now it feels like I'm just starting all over to the very beginning. It's just horrible. I hate this feeling. I feel so alone, and my sis.. you'd think she would want to stay because it's going to be here senior year. But no Lizette is actually looking forward to us moving. Idk I mean I love my sister to death, but I really wanted her to be on my side for this one. I mean I have literally a family of friends up here whether it's band, school, lacrosse, drummers, guard girls or even amanda, kt, and Kendall. I just don't want to leave. I love my home so much and I love my surroundings. Please pray for me you guys please!!
~Judy
P.S. I love you all. You guys have all been the bestest friends a girl could ask for. Even though we will stay in touch if I leave. I'd prefer to be able to continue growing up with you guys. I want to graduate with my friends/ family. : (
God this move has also been making me think a lot of my friends that I'm close to already. Oh how much I'm gonna miss them. I feel like literally a piece of my heart is being ripped out. They've been like my family for the past two years. They've been like big sisters through my first two years of high school. Now that they were leaving I felt like they were finally letting me go out on my own to make my own memories in high school. But now it feels like I'm just starting all over to the very beginning. It's just horrible. I hate this feeling. I feel so alone, and my sis.. you'd think she would want to stay because it's going to be here senior year. But no Lizette is actually looking forward to us moving. Idk I mean I love my sister to death, but I really wanted her to be on my side for this one. I mean I have literally a family of friends up here whether it's band, school, lacrosse, drummers, guard girls or even amanda, kt, and Kendall. I just don't want to leave. I love my home so much and I love my surroundings. Please pray for me you guys please!!
~Judy
P.S. I love you all. You guys have all been the bestest friends a girl could ask for. Even though we will stay in touch if I leave. I'd prefer to be able to continue growing up with you guys. I want to graduate with my friends/ family. : (