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brother comes home wasted, grabs me, hugs me, kisses me and tells me he loves me. ha. i had to drive him to the store to get some smokes, and we had a nice long talk about a lot of shit. it was weird. we never have deep conversatinos, just goofy ones. i never really realized how much him and my 'basically other older brothers' look out for me. he kept telling me he doesn't want to see me screw up, or turn out like him, or any of that shit, and he just wants to see me do good and never wants me hurt. him and his friends i've known since i was little were talking about the parties i go to, and how they know how their friends are and they don't want me around them without them because they don't want anything to happen to me. Made me promise to try and do better in school, and get along with the parents more. as we're growing up, we've been learning to appreciate eachother more than before. We're not just brother and sister..we're friends. And i've just came to realize how lucky i am to have the brothers like i do. He's always been there for me...He, more than anyone else, made me who i am today. He made me the 'tough girl'. back then i thought he hated me and just wanted to fuck with me all the time, but i realized he was preparing me for the real world, making sure i don't take shit from anyone.. him moving out here soon is going to be hard. As much as i hate to say it, i'll miss his wasted ass coming home needing my help, i'll miss his friends coming over, ill miss our stupid fights and wrestling around, I'll miss covering up for him, or having him cover up for me, I'll miss our talks we have that absolutely no one else would understand while laughing our asses off, ill miss us making fun of my mom or dad behind their backs and alughing in their faces..basically, i'm going to miss him. :(