Oct 02, 2005 16:38
This is ridiculous. I start getting a divorce and all of these damn women come outta the woodwork like it's cool. AAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGG some from my past. With all of the effort that I have put forth in relationships why should I bother. Everytime things start back up they crash down upon me.
I feel like Atlas holding up the entire world and it's starting to hurt and I just wanna pitch everything in my life away. No, not MY actual Life... just the things in it. I've had but 2 stable rocks in my life. One is a perfect person by the name of Tiffany and the other is the Man I call GOD. I've listened to one all the time and forgotten the other over the years. I have forgotten God and it's time that changes. This One Time at Christian Camp... Mandie was there she knows the rest.
The rest of my rocks have been nothing but clumped up sand posing as a rock, and when the shit gets wet it goes away really fuckin fast.
I am sick and tired of being jerked around. I tried to make things work with ppl in my life. The feeling is sickening that as soon as I end a relationship ppl just keep popping up. Fuck me when I'm wanting you, and love me when I'm down in the dirt crying and bleeding from my heart. Basically this is for Mandie, if you want me so fucking badly you better bend over backwards and show the feelings I busted my ass for 4 years to show you. I did everything in my power and what did I get. HURT. Grow up and realize what you want and let me know... no more circle jerk of my feelings. YOU WANT MY ASS YOU BETTER PROVE IT AND BE READY TO DEAL WITH CONSEQUENCES OF NOT
i'm done with these... how to say... be nice to the fucking world shit. The reality is ppl call me an asshole... why because i come off that way... but i'm one of the nicest fuckers you'll ever meet. NOT ANYMORE... stand by for total fucking annihilation if you fuck with my heart. It's sickening, annoying, and not to mention FUCKED UP.
OK... here we go. Here's the reality. I've changed since I got married. That was stupid and my bad. Now here's another reality, the guy that used to run around and tell you exactly what he thought of what you were doing, your bf or gf or whoever, whether you liked it or not and didn't care cuz it was the fucking truth is back. BWAHAHA. That's right ladies, I'M BACK You want to fuck with my friendz <(Tiffy, Amber, Nikki, Perez) stand the fuck by. So simply put, Alex you are fucked, Scotty you are damn close to being there... stop fuckin with muh baby sister damn it.
I was sweet enough to change the person I was when I got married, and what did it get me, RAMMED. hahaha... ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. Does the truth hurt? FUCK YES. And the reality is that I'm about to start being me again. Tell you exactly what I think of you and ur shit. Mandie, if you even come close to hurting me in anyway, shape, or form I swear to the Good Lord all hell will break loose. I'm done being sweet and considerate by puttin my feelings on the line and havin my balls hacked off. Not no more damn it. All of you can stand the hell by if you fuck with me. The old me is back and it ain't gonna be pretty.