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bittersweet.
I dont really think i said the word 'pumped' but it doesnt even matter.
Everything happened so quick. I didnt even get to see the scoreboard because like 10 people jumped me right out of the water. I didnt even see my time.
.04 off my goal time. thats so close i could scream. but times dont even matter
I feel embarrassed that i am the only girl going. That hasnt set in yet either. Jocelyn didnt make it. and even though the relay stepped it up and went a best time those damn damn damn midland girls beat us. i swear to god they all take steroids.
or they sold their soul to the devil.
something.
i would give up my 50 any day to get to have my relay go.
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I went a 25.18 which is ironic because the last relay of my Jr High career i went a 26.18. Three years and only 1 second was dropped.
So i guess the meet was a split. It is nearly impossible for me to be happy about it because the relay was so important to us. to all of us. Its all we thought about for the last few weeks. oh well. oh well. oh well. there is nothing. absoluetly nothing I can do about it now.