Eminent Narcissism
Over the past week, I've been able to marinate on my life and how I feel about certain aspects of it. I realize I am as most people are these days, self absorbed and concieted. I noticed what a narcissistic ass I was while with a group of friends. One friend praised another friend for certain admirable qualities aforementioned friend possesses. I found myself sulking in inches of bitterness as I thought to myself "What the fuck? I have these qualities as well" Mind you, this is not the first time I've been in this situation. While I lived with my Aunt she would praise my peers on how they were bearers of certain skills and qualities. Is it wrong to feel under appreciated when it feels like people close to your point out positive skills in others and aren't equally complimentary towards you? Am I just being jealous?
Today I opened my obsessive collection of baby names and thought it was all shit. I kept reading names I have collected over the years [yes, YEARS... since I was like 7] and I was like I wouldn't name my kid that EVER. So now I'm starting all over... *sigh*
My neighbors are totally smoking weed outside my window... I'm pretty pissed because I wish I had some.
On a rare positive note: It was 60 degrees here today. Although it was raining like a motherfucker it was nice to prop open the windows and allow some much appreciated fresh air into my stale apartment.
Today I opened my obsessive collection of baby names and thought it was all shit. I kept reading names I have collected over the years [yes, YEARS... since I was like 7] and I was like I wouldn't name my kid that EVER. So now I'm starting all over... *sigh*
My neighbors are totally smoking weed outside my window... I'm pretty pissed because I wish I had some.
On a rare positive note: It was 60 degrees here today. Although it was raining like a motherfucker it was nice to prop open the windows and allow some much appreciated fresh air into my stale apartment.