I can't explain
I don't know what this feeling is, but it's a good one. I found this boy, who's really sweet. He saw me at my job, but didn't talk to me so he posted the missed connection on craigslist.com, for those of you who are familiar. I found out about it from this guy who works there. So I checked it out, and emailed the guy. We talked, and right off the bat, we were cool. We're into the same kinds of music, we are...basically the same person. And he fufills most of the requirements for me, He smokes, drinks, smokes cigarettes, and is just...altoghether nice. We had a date on friday, which went swell. Then he came over again last night, and we watched Dancer In The Dark, which put us to sleep so I turned it off part way through.
We talked alot more, and around 3 decided to go to bed. He stayed on the couch and I went to my bed, but I left my computer monitor on. He came in and asked if he could turn it off, because the light was bothering him. I told him it was ok, but he was coninvced that he was being an asshole, so I again told him it was alright. He walked over close to my face where I was laying and leaned in and said, "you're so sweet". And then we made out, and it was amazing...his lips are soo soft...I'm such a giddy bitch.
Alex isn't allowed to feel this way. I'm just so...I dunno. I don't wanna ruin things, and I feel like I always have to hold on to things with all my might to make it stay. But he makes me feel light. He makes me smile like a retard, uncontrollably, and against my own will.
...sigh.
Are you alive
Is there a young woman hiding inside
Does she know that we're trying to help her
Is she totally frozen with fear
If you let her come out for a day
She might even like it and stay
But it's gonna take you to invite her
Coz you seem so determined to spite her
Find yourself
We talked alot more, and around 3 decided to go to bed. He stayed on the couch and I went to my bed, but I left my computer monitor on. He came in and asked if he could turn it off, because the light was bothering him. I told him it was ok, but he was coninvced that he was being an asshole, so I again told him it was alright. He walked over close to my face where I was laying and leaned in and said, "you're so sweet". And then we made out, and it was amazing...his lips are soo soft...I'm such a giddy bitch.
Alex isn't allowed to feel this way. I'm just so...I dunno. I don't wanna ruin things, and I feel like I always have to hold on to things with all my might to make it stay. But he makes me feel light. He makes me smile like a retard, uncontrollably, and against my own will.
...sigh.
Are you alive
Is there a young woman hiding inside
Does she know that we're trying to help her
Is she totally frozen with fear
If you let her come out for a day
She might even like it and stay
But it's gonna take you to invite her
Coz you seem so determined to spite her
Find yourself