so much to do....
right so i still have to work on my leave-behind for observational drawing which is due tomorrow night.
damn and i also have to do 25 sketches and my final project for perspective.
i've been terribly depressed lately for many many reasons. my parents have a lot to do with it, like always. but it's more than just them this time. it's everything and everyone. and it's me. i'm making myself depressed all of the time because i keep refusing to change even though i know its time to grow up.
i havent gone back to work yet. i dont know if he's gong to call me today or wait until friday, or possibly next week.
i keep feeling like im going to throw up. all of the time. even when i know im hungry. just the thought of food makes me sick, but i have to eat, dont i? i dunno. sometimes i feel like i should go a week without anything to eat or drink but water.
im just depressed because no one gives a damn about me, and dont you dare reply saying shit like "oh cate that's not true, we do care!"....if you cared you motherfuckers would give me a call now and then, or reply to my posts more, or you'd talk to me on aim, or SOMETHING.
it's no wonder my birthdays always suck ass. between you people never speaking to me, people never showing up for my parties because they've always got some more important bullshit to do for themselves, and my dad never being around....why do i even bother celebrating my birth anymore? it's not like anyone cares that im even alive, otherwise y'all would say happy birthday or something.
i realize that my birthday was 2 months ago, but im just pissed off about people acting like they care about me when it's obviously not true....and my birthdays are proof of that.
fuck everyone.
damn and i also have to do 25 sketches and my final project for perspective.
i've been terribly depressed lately for many many reasons. my parents have a lot to do with it, like always. but it's more than just them this time. it's everything and everyone. and it's me. i'm making myself depressed all of the time because i keep refusing to change even though i know its time to grow up.
i havent gone back to work yet. i dont know if he's gong to call me today or wait until friday, or possibly next week.
i keep feeling like im going to throw up. all of the time. even when i know im hungry. just the thought of food makes me sick, but i have to eat, dont i? i dunno. sometimes i feel like i should go a week without anything to eat or drink but water.
im just depressed because no one gives a damn about me, and dont you dare reply saying shit like "oh cate that's not true, we do care!"....if you cared you motherfuckers would give me a call now and then, or reply to my posts more, or you'd talk to me on aim, or SOMETHING.
it's no wonder my birthdays always suck ass. between you people never speaking to me, people never showing up for my parties because they've always got some more important bullshit to do for themselves, and my dad never being around....why do i even bother celebrating my birth anymore? it's not like anyone cares that im even alive, otherwise y'all would say happy birthday or something.
i realize that my birthday was 2 months ago, but im just pissed off about people acting like they care about me when it's obviously not true....and my birthdays are proof of that.
fuck everyone.