whats goin on?
i've have pretty much decided i dont know.
as of now:
-i am junior of the year, most outstanding defense player and first team all leauge.
-i am not going to be able to play polo this summer.
-i wont be able to get into a college.
-i'm going to be a low life bum when i grow up.
-i can't stand the cold.
-i wish i could just go away.
-i miss the way things use to be when i was at nd(not to be confused with missing nd). all my friends and the summer school crew and just freedom to be with the people i wanted to.
-i am not alright.
but you know, i'll get over it. change my point of view. i'm alive. i'm hot. i'm cold. i'm okay. i'm unhealthy. i'm dying. but i'm alive right now. time to move on. get away from the past. i was helping mike with his homework last night and he had to write a paper on how he wanted to live his life. so i had an idea of "live the moment and take life for what its worth." i thought of it, now i have to live it. stop dwelling on the past, but learn from it. never forget the good or the bad, but realize you cant change them. make sure you live so your future becomes the best it can, but have fun. you're gunna die sooner or later. so i'm going to make the most of now. no matter how much i wish the past didnt happen or it was still going on i have to understand its not going to change. and i do. i'll miss it but i'll be okay. and if i happen to see you...so be it.
as of now:
-i am junior of the year, most outstanding defense player and first team all leauge.
-i am not going to be able to play polo this summer.
-i wont be able to get into a college.
-i'm going to be a low life bum when i grow up.
-i can't stand the cold.
-i wish i could just go away.
-i miss the way things use to be when i was at nd(not to be confused with missing nd). all my friends and the summer school crew and just freedom to be with the people i wanted to.
-i am not alright.
but you know, i'll get over it. change my point of view. i'm alive. i'm hot. i'm cold. i'm okay. i'm unhealthy. i'm dying. but i'm alive right now. time to move on. get away from the past. i was helping mike with his homework last night and he had to write a paper on how he wanted to live his life. so i had an idea of "live the moment and take life for what its worth." i thought of it, now i have to live it. stop dwelling on the past, but learn from it. never forget the good or the bad, but realize you cant change them. make sure you live so your future becomes the best it can, but have fun. you're gunna die sooner or later. so i'm going to make the most of now. no matter how much i wish the past didnt happen or it was still going on i have to understand its not going to change. and i do. i'll miss it but i'll be okay. and if i happen to see you...so be it.