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I hate the way I'm treated by Monika. She treats me like dirt.. like shit.
She treats me like I'm not good enough to be her friend. When I tell her about it, she just tells me that i treat her the same exact way.. maybe it's true.. but I only do that AFTER she says or does something Incredibly stupid. Sometimes i feel like all she thinks about is cindy, and herself... and maybe "boy".... that's it... i don't think she really cares about anyone esle...
Maybe sometimes she'll show love to someone but ONLY if she doesnt have her best friend oaround... I'm sorry, but i'm not the type of person weho'll let someone walk all over them... I'm not going to follow the way she acts... i'm not going to be like her.. I've had the experiance before, and to tell you ther truth, everyopne hated me... I lost two of my BEST friends because of the way i acted like her... Luckily i stopped myself from being like that and i have those to friends back in my life after showing them that i CAN be myself and not act like an "immature" person...
I have my regrets sometimes.. maybe thinking like this will be one regret later on in my life... but right now, i feel this way.. and until i am shown respect by one of my BESt friends (monika) then i have no respect for her at all.... I feel bad.. and upset about everything that i am thinking about her right now, but i cant think any other way right now.... cuz i cant find any reasonm to not think like this about her...
Urgh ANGRY-NESS!!!! ((>.<))
okies... but one a happier note... there is this cute guy.. i won't say who.. but yeah... he's funny, and nice... and we... don't even talkl to eachother.... =[ ahhh... w.e... i hope i'll get to know him... cuz he seems like a cool guy.., and yeah.. *smiles* ^.^ <33
She treats me like I'm not good enough to be her friend. When I tell her about it, she just tells me that i treat her the same exact way.. maybe it's true.. but I only do that AFTER she says or does something Incredibly stupid. Sometimes i feel like all she thinks about is cindy, and herself... and maybe "boy".... that's it... i don't think she really cares about anyone esle...
Maybe sometimes she'll show love to someone but ONLY if she doesnt have her best friend oaround... I'm sorry, but i'm not the type of person weho'll let someone walk all over them... I'm not going to follow the way she acts... i'm not going to be like her.. I've had the experiance before, and to tell you ther truth, everyopne hated me... I lost two of my BEST friends because of the way i acted like her... Luckily i stopped myself from being like that and i have those to friends back in my life after showing them that i CAN be myself and not act like an "immature" person...
I have my regrets sometimes.. maybe thinking like this will be one regret later on in my life... but right now, i feel this way.. and until i am shown respect by one of my BESt friends (monika) then i have no respect for her at all.... I feel bad.. and upset about everything that i am thinking about her right now, but i cant think any other way right now.... cuz i cant find any reasonm to not think like this about her...
Urgh ANGRY-NESS!!!! ((>.<))
okies... but one a happier note... there is this cute guy.. i won't say who.. but yeah... he's funny, and nice... and we... don't even talkl to eachother.... =[ ahhh... w.e... i hope i'll get to know him... cuz he seems like a cool guy.., and yeah.. *smiles* ^.^ <33