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Things are so confusing. One minute I think that things are ok and getting better, and then the next I think that it's all futile. I was feeling like maybe it was partially me just blowing things out of proportion. I told him that I was going to work on my cinical attitude and try to be happier. Now all of a sudden he blew me off all day, didn't even call to let me know what was going on, and then had the nerve to be irritated that I called him to find out what was going on. This is from a guy who says he's willing to work on things. Apparently working on things doesn't include showing them respect. It's frustrating. On the other hand I have a guy who would love to be with me and would probably do his best to make me happy. The major issues that I have now wouldn't be an issue in that scenario simply because the variables don't exist in that equation. Of course I suppose the easier thing is always the most appealing at the moment, eh? I don't know. It's hard to trust any decision that I may make. I'm the sort of person who wants a guarantee and there just isn't one. Not one way or the other. That's hard for me. Well, I suppose I should stop obsessing and go to bed.